I've been reading/hearing that 2012 is quite the transitional year. A year of self reflection, breaking old patterns, and a LOT of coming more into our hearts rather our heads, as well as coming together to unite as a team effort to better humanity. Kindness will spread in the world, and we will seek prosperous relationships, a win-win joint effort, as well as care and compassion for one another. It will be our hunger, our strive. There will be a lot of oppositions with the government and law, but our souls will know the difference. We will feel more. We will engage more. We will seek personal goals. In this mind opening expansion, love may conquer all, in a matter of time, and money will take a back seat to make the world go round. Various activities to support human consciousness, brotherhood, and kindness will spread and get recognized in a matter of time. This is just the beginning. This is the turning point. The world will not end. It is just beginning.
Wow, that was an enlightenment.
My last year's resolution was to write everyday. I made the promise to write everyday, even if it was uninspiring such as "I don't know what to say." That lasted about a week. For the month of January, I slipped and tried to get back on my everyday routine, and then I slipped allllll year.... I wanted to make a book and call it "A Year in the Life of Karla" and look back at what I accomplished, fell back on, and grew from. But I guess I wasn't feeling it. I made a commitment that felt pressured. Writing only comes from inspiration, or an idea that flows. I just didn't have that everyday, and making myself write was something I didn't want to do, unless I felt it.
Like now.
I guess this year's resolution is to become more into myself and away from myself. I mean to become more into my authentic self, and less into my mind. To get away from all the little details and into the bigger picture. To concentrate on something bigger than myself. To stop thinking about what is happening TO me, and focus on what I CAN do. To flow with life, to be the master creator, and to know that I can make a difference in this world, and to get rid of my fears and out of my head concerning details. Think about what I want in life, and go for it, instead of how it's going to happening. All we have, individually, is knowledge. Knowledge we hear or read everywhere we go. It's not about how to use the knowledge, it's about trusting it, and letting it go. For example, you may think little of the universe and have little faith in things working out for you. It doesn't matter if you don't. It's trusting your inner knowledge and listening to that intuition inside of you that tells you what to believe. You know what's right for you. If you just listen. And believe it. Then, do it!
I hope all of you have a Happy, Joyous, Fulfilling 2012 and may you follow your dreams and your hearts.
Much Love,
Karla
Saturday, December 31, 2011
Year in a Nutshell
I thought I would lay it flat on the table with no inhibitions and talk about the year I had.
As you may know, I am now living in Vernon as of October 2011. After having lived in Vancouver my whole life, I decided to get out of the big city and move to the Okanagan. Why Vernon? A lot of people ask. Honestly, I don't know. It was just something I picked. Partly to do with the fact that I didn't know anyone here, except for an old high school friend, that I just got back in touch with. So, that's my reason. I basically picked this as a safety net. I have to say, she has been a real help for me with giving me a place to stay while I was looking for my own place. That's me, seeking adventure. With routine and monotony I get pretty bored easily. So, that's another reason I moved from Vancouver after 31 years. It is a very beautiful city, and everyone agrees. But I felt this is just something my gut was telling me to do and so without fear or hesitation, I went for it (well, with some fear and hesitation, I did have, I went for it anyway. Just like that book "Feel the Fear and Do It Anyway" ;)
I am glad I did. Even though my life in Vancouver was filled with very genuine friendships and a very good (but unsteady) job the last couple years. I felt like I fit in somewhere in life, the first time in a very long time.
Also, partly because of an on-again/off-again relationship making me feel the need to escape everything familiar and get a fresh start, new inspiration. I had a vision I would go rock hounding throughout the interior driving down the lake hugging highway and stopping at various places, as I have been collecting crystals and stones the last couple years. That will come in the New Year. I know I have had a few challenges, but also a few miracles, during my time here in the last 3 months.
*breathe* Where to start.
I moved here feeling elated, brand new, and excited. Out of the blue, a man re-entered my life whom I have known since an infant. Our families were very close. Our mothers were best friends. We went camping as kids and my family lived with his family for a couple months when my mom divorced my dad in 1989. He invited me to his aunt's house for thanksgiving, and, after not having seen him for 17 years, I gladly accepted.
Things hit off right away, and he pursued me and wanted a relationship. I was hesitant going into one, but my heart wasn't. I felt so comfortable around him, and he made me laugh until I couldn't catch my breath and my eyes cried. We built memories and future visions together for those 2 months. Then, all of a sudden, he became distant and eventually, ended the relationship with me. This is where I'm at right now. He still wants to be friends, but I want to be more. I recently went to his brother's wedding and had a great time with his family laughing and having a jolly time. They like me, and I like them. More so, I love and respect him. He is such a great guy, with so many good attributes, integrity, and goals. He will become successful at whatever he chooses to do. That's why, they say, if you love someone, let them go. As much as I love him and want to be with him, I do love him enough to let him carry on his own life and do what he needs to do. If I thought otherwise, that would be jealousy and greed.
Maybe this opportunity is teaching me to love, in ways that I haven't experienced before. I remember in past relationships I would have these set rules that I would make up for myself for a man to do. But that is not love, love has no restrictions. You should not expect anything from love. Thinking that way just set myself up for disappointment.
I am not going to be one of those girls who is walking on tightropes to express myself. There are people who give advice on what to do, how to act, what to say, eg. Wait an hour (hypothetically speaking) before returning his texts.... Playing hard to get..... Don't call him until he calls you.... I am sick of playing that bullshit game. If I want to talk to someone, if I want to hug them, if I want to express how I feel, I do it. It is not needy or any other type of label. I can love someone and be happy on my own at the same time. I am myself. I follow my own heart, because if I didn't, my mind would go crazy, thinking things in a never ending cycle, and I wouldn't be growing. I am moving away from the game mentality, and just going by what my heart truly desires. Why would I be someone else otherwise? What good is it to be someone else other than yourself? You just end up hurting yourself.
I've been reading/hearing that 2012 is quite the transitional year. A year of self reflection, breaking old patterns, and a LOT of coming more into our hearts rather our heads, as well as coming together to unite as a team effort to better humanity. Kindness will spread in the world, and we will seek prosperous relationships, a win-win joint effort, as well as care and compassion for one another. It will be our hunger, our strive. There will be a lot of oppositions with the government and law, but our souls will know the difference. We will feel more. We will engage more. We will seek personal goals. In this mind opening expansion, love may conquer all, in a matter of time, and money will take a back seat to make the world go round. Various activities to support human consciousness, brotherhood, and kindness will spread and get recognized in a matter of time. This is just the beginning. This is the turning point. The world will not end. It is just beginning.
Wow, that was an enlightenment.
My last year's resolution was to write everyday. I made the promise to write everyday, even if it was uninspiring such as "I don't know what to say." That lasted about a week. For the month of January, I slipped and tried to get back on my everyday routine, and then I slipped allllll year.... I wanted to make a book and call it "A Year in the Life of Karla" and look back at what I accomplished, fell back on, and grew from. But I guess I wasn't feeling it. I made a commitment that felt pressured. Writing only comes from inspiration, or an idea that flows. I just didn't have that everyday, and making myself write was something I didn't want to do, unless I felt it.
Like now.
I guess this year's resolution is to become more into myself and away from myself. I mean to become more into my authentic self, and less into my mind. To get away from all the little details and into the bigger picture. To concentrate on something bigger than myself. To stop thinking about what is happening TO me, and focus on what I CAN do. To flow with life, to be the master creator, and to know that I can make a difference in this world, and to get rid of my fears and out of my head concerning details. Think about what I want in life, and go for it, instead of how it's going to happening. All we have, individually, is knowledge. Knowledge we hear or read everywhere we go. It's not about how to use the knowledge, it's about trusting it, and letting it go. For example, you may think little of the universe and have little faith in things working out for you. It doesn't matter if you don't. It's trusting your inner knowledge and listening to that intuition inside of you that tells you what to believe. You know what's right for you. If you just listen. And believe it. Then, do it!
I hope all of you have a Happy, Joyous, Fulfilling 2012 and may you follow your dreams and your hearts.
Much Love,
Karla
As you may know, I am now living in Vernon as of October 2011. After having lived in Vancouver my whole life, I decided to get out of the big city and move to the Okanagan. Why Vernon? A lot of people ask. Honestly, I don't know. It was just something I picked. Partly to do with the fact that I didn't know anyone here, except for an old high school friend, that I just got back in touch with. So, that's my reason. I basically picked this as a safety net. I have to say, she has been a real help for me with giving me a place to stay while I was looking for my own place. That's me, seeking adventure. With routine and monotony I get pretty bored easily. So, that's another reason I moved from Vancouver after 31 years. It is a very beautiful city, and everyone agrees. But I felt this is just something my gut was telling me to do and so without fear or hesitation, I went for it (well, with some fear and hesitation, I did have, I went for it anyway. Just like that book "Feel the Fear and Do It Anyway" ;)
I am glad I did. Even though my life in Vancouver was filled with very genuine friendships and a very good (but unsteady) job the last couple years. I felt like I fit in somewhere in life, the first time in a very long time.
Also, partly because of an on-again/off-again relationship making me feel the need to escape everything familiar and get a fresh start, new inspiration. I had a vision I would go rock hounding throughout the interior driving down the lake hugging highway and stopping at various places, as I have been collecting crystals and stones the last couple years. That will come in the New Year. I know I have had a few challenges, but also a few miracles, during my time here in the last 3 months.
*breathe* Where to start.
I moved here feeling elated, brand new, and excited. Out of the blue, a man re-entered my life whom I have known since an infant. Our families were very close. Our mothers were best friends. We went camping as kids and my family lived with his family for a couple months when my mom divorced my dad in 1989. He invited me to his aunt's house for thanksgiving, and, after not having seen him for 17 years, I gladly accepted.
Things hit off right away, and he pursued me and wanted a relationship. I was hesitant going into one, but my heart wasn't. I felt so comfortable around him, and he made me laugh until I couldn't catch my breath and my eyes cried. We built memories and future visions together for those 2 months. Then, all of a sudden, he became distant and eventually, ended the relationship with me. This is where I'm at right now. He still wants to be friends, but I want to be more. I recently went to his brother's wedding and had a great time with his family laughing and having a jolly time. They like me, and I like them. More so, I love and respect him. He is such a great guy, with so many good attributes, integrity, and goals. He will become successful at whatever he chooses to do. That's why, they say, if you love someone, let them go. As much as I love him and want to be with him, I do love him enough to let him carry on his own life and do what he needs to do. If I thought otherwise, that would be jealousy and greed.
Maybe this opportunity is teaching me to love, in ways that I haven't experienced before. I remember in past relationships I would have these set rules that I would make up for myself for a man to do. But that is not love, love has no restrictions. You should not expect anything from love. Thinking that way just set myself up for disappointment.
I am not going to be one of those girls who is walking on tightropes to express myself. There are people who give advice on what to do, how to act, what to say, eg. Wait an hour (hypothetically speaking) before returning his texts.... Playing hard to get..... Don't call him until he calls you.... I am sick of playing that bullshit game. If I want to talk to someone, if I want to hug them, if I want to express how I feel, I do it. It is not needy or any other type of label. I can love someone and be happy on my own at the same time. I am myself. I follow my own heart, because if I didn't, my mind would go crazy, thinking things in a never ending cycle, and I wouldn't be growing. I am moving away from the game mentality, and just going by what my heart truly desires. Why would I be someone else otherwise? What good is it to be someone else other than yourself? You just end up hurting yourself.
I've been reading/hearing that 2012 is quite the transitional year. A year of self reflection, breaking old patterns, and a LOT of coming more into our hearts rather our heads, as well as coming together to unite as a team effort to better humanity. Kindness will spread in the world, and we will seek prosperous relationships, a win-win joint effort, as well as care and compassion for one another. It will be our hunger, our strive. There will be a lot of oppositions with the government and law, but our souls will know the difference. We will feel more. We will engage more. We will seek personal goals. In this mind opening expansion, love may conquer all, in a matter of time, and money will take a back seat to make the world go round. Various activities to support human consciousness, brotherhood, and kindness will spread and get recognized in a matter of time. This is just the beginning. This is the turning point. The world will not end. It is just beginning.
Wow, that was an enlightenment.
My last year's resolution was to write everyday. I made the promise to write everyday, even if it was uninspiring such as "I don't know what to say." That lasted about a week. For the month of January, I slipped and tried to get back on my everyday routine, and then I slipped allllll year.... I wanted to make a book and call it "A Year in the Life of Karla" and look back at what I accomplished, fell back on, and grew from. But I guess I wasn't feeling it. I made a commitment that felt pressured. Writing only comes from inspiration, or an idea that flows. I just didn't have that everyday, and making myself write was something I didn't want to do, unless I felt it.
Like now.
I guess this year's resolution is to become more into myself and away from myself. I mean to become more into my authentic self, and less into my mind. To get away from all the little details and into the bigger picture. To concentrate on something bigger than myself. To stop thinking about what is happening TO me, and focus on what I CAN do. To flow with life, to be the master creator, and to know that I can make a difference in this world, and to get rid of my fears and out of my head concerning details. Think about what I want in life, and go for it, instead of how it's going to happening. All we have, individually, is knowledge. Knowledge we hear or read everywhere we go. It's not about how to use the knowledge, it's about trusting it, and letting it go. For example, you may think little of the universe and have little faith in things working out for you. It doesn't matter if you don't. It's trusting your inner knowledge and listening to that intuition inside of you that tells you what to believe. You know what's right for you. If you just listen. And believe it. Then, do it!
I hope all of you have a Happy, Joyous, Fulfilling 2012 and may you follow your dreams and your hearts.
Much Love,
Karla
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