Tuesday, September 4, 2012
TRUST in HIM
There is a battle going on.... The battle between good/bad, what is right/wrong. When change is on your side, this battle becomes even stronger to those around you. Those who love you, will accept who you are. Those who do not accept, will have a harder time loving you. There is a battle going on. An opposition of forces, trying to prove their way of what is right/what is wrong. But who is to say what is right/what is wrong? We are all trying to figure it out in our daily lives. We have to Remember: We are not alone in our journey. We are not to be left to figure it all out without help. Who is here to help is GOD, if we put our faith and trust in Him. If we all just believe there is the strength and faith in a HIGHER POWER, someone higher than ourselves! We are powerless. We cannot do it all on our own. We must put faith in GOD. We must learn the truth. We must believe. We must know there is/was something here before us. We must believe in miracles. We must put faith and trust in His hands. He is the one to Guide us. So let GO...... Of trying to figure it all out on your own. Believe in Him. Believe in Yourself. Try Not, Just Believe..... There is something above you, all in all, that has control.
Wednesday, June 6, 2012
Earthlings
I am not the same as I used to be. I am better. I am worse. How can we measure our worth. Everything's changing. As Bob Dylan said, "There is nothing as constant as change." Everything's changing. How can we wish something back the way it was when it has already disappeared? Looking ahead to new beginnings, but looking back at the past. I feel stuck in one spot, not knowing which way to go. Can I keep up with this fast pace? Or should I just notice it pass me by and breathe. It feels like I lost my heart a long time ago. I know it's buried down there somewhere.
The cycle continued. Built upon something that was never there. Covered up dirt with dirt. So much pain and torture undealt with. Why do we do this to ourselves? We feed on the dug up hole to dig deeper, meanwhile getting stuck inside of it. Seems like a lot of healing to take place. Or, maybe none at all. Perhaps it is all just a story. Perhaps we are immortal, just waiting for our next boundless ocean to play in. Perhaps we have had our hearts all along, indestructable, untorn, intact, perfect. Perhaps we *think* this story affects our hearts, when in reality, it's all we ever have, and all that keeps us alive. Beating. Constant. Unbreakable. Change. Constant.
Tuesday, February 21, 2012
"You'll be Damned if you do, and Damned if you don't." - Eleanor Roosevelt
Lying in bed exhausted, not ready to go to sleep. The full moon is upon us, and I just got home 2 hours ago from my clay class (although it feels more like 1 hour), in which I spent making something to eat, updating my profile info on Facebook, and dedicating my life to tv watching a very low-budget show on obvious looking large fake snakes attacking humans on the earth. I guess I have been feeling sensitive lately, and perhaps it is because it is a full-moon, and because the moon is in my sign (Aquarius) and because I was born on a full-moon, and having my moon in Aquarius in my birthchart may have a contributing factor to why I am feeling this way. I try not to analyze it too much. But being sensitive during these cycles is not a bad thing. I am learning to embrace my sensitivity and use it in a creative way instead of a reacting way. One of the Angel cards in my deck from Doreen Virtue explains how sensitivity and the full-moon can be to your advantage (for someone like me who feels things easily) to start new things.
So, here I am writing this out. And it gives me a chance to express myself as I feel I cannot do that at work very much. You'd think working at an arts centre I can have that opportunity, but not sitting at the front desk all day, waiting for something to happen. There are times I am completely "energetically frozen" and long for something to do; to move, to think, to create. I cannot just sit there, and we as human beings are not called on this earth to sit there and do nothing. So, when I have those days, I like to use my time when I am not at work, creatively. I mean, after work I had the opportunity to be creative with clay, in which I made some awesome tiles I was enjoying very much. But I feel I also need that alone time to collect my thoughts and ideas throughout the day. I could write in a diary, but I am much faster at typing, and my mind tends to go on overdrive with these thoughts and ideas, so I find my fingers can keep up with my mind rather than my pen ;)
SO - What I was thinking of today was excuses. We make up lots of excuses throughout the day: It's raining, It's too cold/hot, It's too far, I'll do it tomorrow, etc. etc. Well I say, if you really wanted to do something, you wouldn't find excuses take over your desire, you would do it! Because what happens the next time it rains? You will make up excuses again and again and then months, years go by, and you will think "Why haven't I done this yet?" All because you thought something was standing in the way. Well the only thing standing in your way is you, and most often, we are standing in our way because of fear! It is really not because it is raining. It is really not because it is too cold/hot outside, just dress appropriately. If you really wanted something, you would let no outside circumstance stand in the way of your inner desire. Those outside circumstances just happen to be there to test you, and you notice them, and your mind quickly makes up that reason of why you can't do it. I say: "If you want something, you will let NOTHING get in your way!"
And I say this because I have had to do something in which I felt I had nothing. For example, I do not have a car, so I have to walk everywhere. Does that stop me from walking in -2 for 45 minutes to get groceries? No. I have no choice, and I have to eat. And I like the fresh air! ;) See I can see not having a car as most people see it as an inconvenience. My mind thinks it is, but on the other hand, I do like the outdoors, and I like the exercise.
Also, when I was moving out of my previous place I was renting, I had to clean it (as we all do when we move out of places) and the only time I could do that was after work. Well, the buses stop running at 6:30 pm. So one day, the big oven and shower scrubbing day, I took the bus after I got off work at 5 pm to my old place to clean. I brought my laundry to work in the morning because I was planning on doing laundry at my old place because my new place doesn't have laundry. After cleaning for 3 hours, I walked home at 8:30 pm, tired and hungry, carrying my big bag of laundry against the wind in -6 weather for 45 mins. I felt like a real trooper, and was proud of myself. I could be a whiner and say it was difficult. It was, but it is these experiences that make us stronger. I wanted to do these things. One reason was that I wanted my damage deposit back, and I respect other people's property. I also wanted to do my laundry, so I brought it with me and knew I was to carry it back. This is a minor example of going after what you want, but say if you wanted to travel China or find a girlfriend, you would research ways in how to do that. Then you would make a plan, and work on it, step by step.
For instance: I moved to the Okanagan because I wanted change. My main intention was change. Change in scenery, people, experience, perspective, and even change in myself. I have to be careful in what I wish for, because I just might get it! I set out that intention, made the plan, followed through (it is at the same time, exciting and scary, when you follow through with your actions, because you are excited to experience something new and think the best, but scary at the same time, because you don't know what to expect, and are scared to leave behind the familiar. But this is when growth takes place), and here I am, definitely finding myself in challenging situations, but liberating experiences. In the last 4 months, I have had 2 jobs, lost 1 job, got into a loving relationship that ended unexpectedly, and moved twice. I'm also finding it challenging (I keep erasing the word "hard") without a car in the winter. I am so accustomed to be and think independently growing up in the city, where buses are abundant. Here, not so much. I cannot go out after 6:30 pm unless I walk or ask someone for a ride. And I'm not much one to ask people for rides. Yesterday I asked my friend for a ride because I finished my volunteer orientation at the Performing Arts Centre, and she picked me up, and it seemed so much easier than an hour walk home (and was not too much of a bother on her!) So I have to get it out of my mind that I have to do everything on my own. I mean thinking that does tend to push myself harder when I'm not relying on people. But at the same time, it doesn't have to be hard, and I don't have to be hard on myself! ;)
I also had my first volunteer orientation yesterday at the Performing Arts Centre in which I applied for in October! I am so excited to start volunteering and gaining experience within the industry. Film and theatre have always been my thing, and it's the environment I feel most comfortable in. So getting that opportunity has put me in a positive mood since yesterday, as things are definitely worth waiting for, and my time here has definitely taught me a lesson in patience, which is ongoing. If it is in your heart, you will listen to that and go after it to keep your integrity.
Well, it is 11:45 pm and I have "outletted" myself just as much as I needed to. I will wake up at 6:30 am and do it all over again. Leave by 7:30 and get to work 45 mins early as the buses only run here every hour in my neck of the "woods." Even though I am tired when I awake, I know what has made me tired was how I used my time for my own satisfaction and joy. In the morning I get to look at the quiet mountain side and relax and gain some inspiration before I start to do my grind. I find it helps me settle into my truth.
I will leave you with a quote from Eleanor Roosevelt I came across today, as very fitting of my thoughts today of "Going after what you want."
"Do what you feel in your heart to be right - for you'll be criticized anyway. You'll be damned if you do, and damned if you don't.
Goodnight :)
So, here I am writing this out. And it gives me a chance to express myself as I feel I cannot do that at work very much. You'd think working at an arts centre I can have that opportunity, but not sitting at the front desk all day, waiting for something to happen. There are times I am completely "energetically frozen" and long for something to do; to move, to think, to create. I cannot just sit there, and we as human beings are not called on this earth to sit there and do nothing. So, when I have those days, I like to use my time when I am not at work, creatively. I mean, after work I had the opportunity to be creative with clay, in which I made some awesome tiles I was enjoying very much. But I feel I also need that alone time to collect my thoughts and ideas throughout the day. I could write in a diary, but I am much faster at typing, and my mind tends to go on overdrive with these thoughts and ideas, so I find my fingers can keep up with my mind rather than my pen ;)
SO - What I was thinking of today was excuses. We make up lots of excuses throughout the day: It's raining, It's too cold/hot, It's too far, I'll do it tomorrow, etc. etc. Well I say, if you really wanted to do something, you wouldn't find excuses take over your desire, you would do it! Because what happens the next time it rains? You will make up excuses again and again and then months, years go by, and you will think "Why haven't I done this yet?" All because you thought something was standing in the way. Well the only thing standing in your way is you, and most often, we are standing in our way because of fear! It is really not because it is raining. It is really not because it is too cold/hot outside, just dress appropriately. If you really wanted something, you would let no outside circumstance stand in the way of your inner desire. Those outside circumstances just happen to be there to test you, and you notice them, and your mind quickly makes up that reason of why you can't do it. I say: "If you want something, you will let NOTHING get in your way!"
And I say this because I have had to do something in which I felt I had nothing. For example, I do not have a car, so I have to walk everywhere. Does that stop me from walking in -2 for 45 minutes to get groceries? No. I have no choice, and I have to eat. And I like the fresh air! ;) See I can see not having a car as most people see it as an inconvenience. My mind thinks it is, but on the other hand, I do like the outdoors, and I like the exercise.
Also, when I was moving out of my previous place I was renting, I had to clean it (as we all do when we move out of places) and the only time I could do that was after work. Well, the buses stop running at 6:30 pm. So one day, the big oven and shower scrubbing day, I took the bus after I got off work at 5 pm to my old place to clean. I brought my laundry to work in the morning because I was planning on doing laundry at my old place because my new place doesn't have laundry. After cleaning for 3 hours, I walked home at 8:30 pm, tired and hungry, carrying my big bag of laundry against the wind in -6 weather for 45 mins. I felt like a real trooper, and was proud of myself. I could be a whiner and say it was difficult. It was, but it is these experiences that make us stronger. I wanted to do these things. One reason was that I wanted my damage deposit back, and I respect other people's property. I also wanted to do my laundry, so I brought it with me and knew I was to carry it back. This is a minor example of going after what you want, but say if you wanted to travel China or find a girlfriend, you would research ways in how to do that. Then you would make a plan, and work on it, step by step.
For instance: I moved to the Okanagan because I wanted change. My main intention was change. Change in scenery, people, experience, perspective, and even change in myself. I have to be careful in what I wish for, because I just might get it! I set out that intention, made the plan, followed through (it is at the same time, exciting and scary, when you follow through with your actions, because you are excited to experience something new and think the best, but scary at the same time, because you don't know what to expect, and are scared to leave behind the familiar. But this is when growth takes place), and here I am, definitely finding myself in challenging situations, but liberating experiences. In the last 4 months, I have had 2 jobs, lost 1 job, got into a loving relationship that ended unexpectedly, and moved twice. I'm also finding it challenging (I keep erasing the word "hard") without a car in the winter. I am so accustomed to be and think independently growing up in the city, where buses are abundant. Here, not so much. I cannot go out after 6:30 pm unless I walk or ask someone for a ride. And I'm not much one to ask people for rides. Yesterday I asked my friend for a ride because I finished my volunteer orientation at the Performing Arts Centre, and she picked me up, and it seemed so much easier than an hour walk home (and was not too much of a bother on her!) So I have to get it out of my mind that I have to do everything on my own. I mean thinking that does tend to push myself harder when I'm not relying on people. But at the same time, it doesn't have to be hard, and I don't have to be hard on myself! ;)
I also had my first volunteer orientation yesterday at the Performing Arts Centre in which I applied for in October! I am so excited to start volunteering and gaining experience within the industry. Film and theatre have always been my thing, and it's the environment I feel most comfortable in. So getting that opportunity has put me in a positive mood since yesterday, as things are definitely worth waiting for, and my time here has definitely taught me a lesson in patience, which is ongoing. If it is in your heart, you will listen to that and go after it to keep your integrity.
Well, it is 11:45 pm and I have "outletted" myself just as much as I needed to. I will wake up at 6:30 am and do it all over again. Leave by 7:30 and get to work 45 mins early as the buses only run here every hour in my neck of the "woods." Even though I am tired when I awake, I know what has made me tired was how I used my time for my own satisfaction and joy. In the morning I get to look at the quiet mountain side and relax and gain some inspiration before I start to do my grind. I find it helps me settle into my truth.
I will leave you with a quote from Eleanor Roosevelt I came across today, as very fitting of my thoughts today of "Going after what you want."
"Do what you feel in your heart to be right - for you'll be criticized anyway. You'll be damned if you do, and damned if you don't.
Goodnight :)
Saturday, December 31, 2011
Transitioning into 2012..... and beyond.......
I've been reading/hearing that 2012 is quite the transitional year. A year of self reflection, breaking old patterns, and a LOT of coming more into our hearts rather our heads, as well as coming together to unite as a team effort to better humanity. Kindness will spread in the world, and we will seek prosperous relationships, a win-win joint effort, as well as care and compassion for one another. It will be our hunger, our strive. There will be a lot of oppositions with the government and law, but our souls will know the difference. We will feel more. We will engage more. We will seek personal goals. In this mind opening expansion, love may conquer all, in a matter of time, and money will take a back seat to make the world go round. Various activities to support human consciousness, brotherhood, and kindness will spread and get recognized in a matter of time. This is just the beginning. This is the turning point. The world will not end. It is just beginning.
Wow, that was an enlightenment.
My last year's resolution was to write everyday. I made the promise to write everyday, even if it was uninspiring such as "I don't know what to say." That lasted about a week. For the month of January, I slipped and tried to get back on my everyday routine, and then I slipped allllll year.... I wanted to make a book and call it "A Year in the Life of Karla" and look back at what I accomplished, fell back on, and grew from. But I guess I wasn't feeling it. I made a commitment that felt pressured. Writing only comes from inspiration, or an idea that flows. I just didn't have that everyday, and making myself write was something I didn't want to do, unless I felt it.
Like now.
I guess this year's resolution is to become more into myself and away from myself. I mean to become more into my authentic self, and less into my mind. To get away from all the little details and into the bigger picture. To concentrate on something bigger than myself. To stop thinking about what is happening TO me, and focus on what I CAN do. To flow with life, to be the master creator, and to know that I can make a difference in this world, and to get rid of my fears and out of my head concerning details. Think about what I want in life, and go for it, instead of how it's going to happening. All we have, individually, is knowledge. Knowledge we hear or read everywhere we go. It's not about how to use the knowledge, it's about trusting it, and letting it go. For example, you may think little of the universe and have little faith in things working out for you. It doesn't matter if you don't. It's trusting your inner knowledge and listening to that intuition inside of you that tells you what to believe. You know what's right for you. If you just listen. And believe it. Then, do it!
I hope all of you have a Happy, Joyous, Fulfilling 2012 and may you follow your dreams and your hearts.
Much Love,
Karla
Wow, that was an enlightenment.
My last year's resolution was to write everyday. I made the promise to write everyday, even if it was uninspiring such as "I don't know what to say." That lasted about a week. For the month of January, I slipped and tried to get back on my everyday routine, and then I slipped allllll year.... I wanted to make a book and call it "A Year in the Life of Karla" and look back at what I accomplished, fell back on, and grew from. But I guess I wasn't feeling it. I made a commitment that felt pressured. Writing only comes from inspiration, or an idea that flows. I just didn't have that everyday, and making myself write was something I didn't want to do, unless I felt it.
Like now.
I guess this year's resolution is to become more into myself and away from myself. I mean to become more into my authentic self, and less into my mind. To get away from all the little details and into the bigger picture. To concentrate on something bigger than myself. To stop thinking about what is happening TO me, and focus on what I CAN do. To flow with life, to be the master creator, and to know that I can make a difference in this world, and to get rid of my fears and out of my head concerning details. Think about what I want in life, and go for it, instead of how it's going to happening. All we have, individually, is knowledge. Knowledge we hear or read everywhere we go. It's not about how to use the knowledge, it's about trusting it, and letting it go. For example, you may think little of the universe and have little faith in things working out for you. It doesn't matter if you don't. It's trusting your inner knowledge and listening to that intuition inside of you that tells you what to believe. You know what's right for you. If you just listen. And believe it. Then, do it!
I hope all of you have a Happy, Joyous, Fulfilling 2012 and may you follow your dreams and your hearts.
Much Love,
Karla
Year in a Nutshell
I thought I would lay it flat on the table with no inhibitions and talk about the year I had.
As you may know, I am now living in Vernon as of October 2011. After having lived in Vancouver my whole life, I decided to get out of the big city and move to the Okanagan. Why Vernon? A lot of people ask. Honestly, I don't know. It was just something I picked. Partly to do with the fact that I didn't know anyone here, except for an old high school friend, that I just got back in touch with. So, that's my reason. I basically picked this as a safety net. I have to say, she has been a real help for me with giving me a place to stay while I was looking for my own place. That's me, seeking adventure. With routine and monotony I get pretty bored easily. So, that's another reason I moved from Vancouver after 31 years. It is a very beautiful city, and everyone agrees. But I felt this is just something my gut was telling me to do and so without fear or hesitation, I went for it (well, with some fear and hesitation, I did have, I went for it anyway. Just like that book "Feel the Fear and Do It Anyway" ;)
I am glad I did. Even though my life in Vancouver was filled with very genuine friendships and a very good (but unsteady) job the last couple years. I felt like I fit in somewhere in life, the first time in a very long time.
Also, partly because of an on-again/off-again relationship making me feel the need to escape everything familiar and get a fresh start, new inspiration. I had a vision I would go rock hounding throughout the interior driving down the lake hugging highway and stopping at various places, as I have been collecting crystals and stones the last couple years. That will come in the New Year. I know I have had a few challenges, but also a few miracles, during my time here in the last 3 months.
*breathe* Where to start.
I moved here feeling elated, brand new, and excited. Out of the blue, a man re-entered my life whom I have known since an infant. Our families were very close. Our mothers were best friends. We went camping as kids and my family lived with his family for a couple months when my mom divorced my dad in 1989. He invited me to his aunt's house for thanksgiving, and, after not having seen him for 17 years, I gladly accepted.
Things hit off right away, and he pursued me and wanted a relationship. I was hesitant going into one, but my heart wasn't. I felt so comfortable around him, and he made me laugh until I couldn't catch my breath and my eyes cried. We built memories and future visions together for those 2 months. Then, all of a sudden, he became distant and eventually, ended the relationship with me. This is where I'm at right now. He still wants to be friends, but I want to be more. I recently went to his brother's wedding and had a great time with his family laughing and having a jolly time. They like me, and I like them. More so, I love and respect him. He is such a great guy, with so many good attributes, integrity, and goals. He will become successful at whatever he chooses to do. That's why, they say, if you love someone, let them go. As much as I love him and want to be with him, I do love him enough to let him carry on his own life and do what he needs to do. If I thought otherwise, that would be jealousy and greed.
Maybe this opportunity is teaching me to love, in ways that I haven't experienced before. I remember in past relationships I would have these set rules that I would make up for myself for a man to do. But that is not love, love has no restrictions. You should not expect anything from love. Thinking that way just set myself up for disappointment.
I am not going to be one of those girls who is walking on tightropes to express myself. There are people who give advice on what to do, how to act, what to say, eg. Wait an hour (hypothetically speaking) before returning his texts.... Playing hard to get..... Don't call him until he calls you.... I am sick of playing that bullshit game. If I want to talk to someone, if I want to hug them, if I want to express how I feel, I do it. It is not needy or any other type of label. I can love someone and be happy on my own at the same time. I am myself. I follow my own heart, because if I didn't, my mind would go crazy, thinking things in a never ending cycle, and I wouldn't be growing. I am moving away from the game mentality, and just going by what my heart truly desires. Why would I be someone else otherwise? What good is it to be someone else other than yourself? You just end up hurting yourself.
I've been reading/hearing that 2012 is quite the transitional year. A year of self reflection, breaking old patterns, and a LOT of coming more into our hearts rather our heads, as well as coming together to unite as a team effort to better humanity. Kindness will spread in the world, and we will seek prosperous relationships, a win-win joint effort, as well as care and compassion for one another. It will be our hunger, our strive. There will be a lot of oppositions with the government and law, but our souls will know the difference. We will feel more. We will engage more. We will seek personal goals. In this mind opening expansion, love may conquer all, in a matter of time, and money will take a back seat to make the world go round. Various activities to support human consciousness, brotherhood, and kindness will spread and get recognized in a matter of time. This is just the beginning. This is the turning point. The world will not end. It is just beginning.
Wow, that was an enlightenment.
My last year's resolution was to write everyday. I made the promise to write everyday, even if it was uninspiring such as "I don't know what to say." That lasted about a week. For the month of January, I slipped and tried to get back on my everyday routine, and then I slipped allllll year.... I wanted to make a book and call it "A Year in the Life of Karla" and look back at what I accomplished, fell back on, and grew from. But I guess I wasn't feeling it. I made a commitment that felt pressured. Writing only comes from inspiration, or an idea that flows. I just didn't have that everyday, and making myself write was something I didn't want to do, unless I felt it.
Like now.
I guess this year's resolution is to become more into myself and away from myself. I mean to become more into my authentic self, and less into my mind. To get away from all the little details and into the bigger picture. To concentrate on something bigger than myself. To stop thinking about what is happening TO me, and focus on what I CAN do. To flow with life, to be the master creator, and to know that I can make a difference in this world, and to get rid of my fears and out of my head concerning details. Think about what I want in life, and go for it, instead of how it's going to happening. All we have, individually, is knowledge. Knowledge we hear or read everywhere we go. It's not about how to use the knowledge, it's about trusting it, and letting it go. For example, you may think little of the universe and have little faith in things working out for you. It doesn't matter if you don't. It's trusting your inner knowledge and listening to that intuition inside of you that tells you what to believe. You know what's right for you. If you just listen. And believe it. Then, do it!
I hope all of you have a Happy, Joyous, Fulfilling 2012 and may you follow your dreams and your hearts.
Much Love,
Karla
As you may know, I am now living in Vernon as of October 2011. After having lived in Vancouver my whole life, I decided to get out of the big city and move to the Okanagan. Why Vernon? A lot of people ask. Honestly, I don't know. It was just something I picked. Partly to do with the fact that I didn't know anyone here, except for an old high school friend, that I just got back in touch with. So, that's my reason. I basically picked this as a safety net. I have to say, she has been a real help for me with giving me a place to stay while I was looking for my own place. That's me, seeking adventure. With routine and monotony I get pretty bored easily. So, that's another reason I moved from Vancouver after 31 years. It is a very beautiful city, and everyone agrees. But I felt this is just something my gut was telling me to do and so without fear or hesitation, I went for it (well, with some fear and hesitation, I did have, I went for it anyway. Just like that book "Feel the Fear and Do It Anyway" ;)
I am glad I did. Even though my life in Vancouver was filled with very genuine friendships and a very good (but unsteady) job the last couple years. I felt like I fit in somewhere in life, the first time in a very long time.
Also, partly because of an on-again/off-again relationship making me feel the need to escape everything familiar and get a fresh start, new inspiration. I had a vision I would go rock hounding throughout the interior driving down the lake hugging highway and stopping at various places, as I have been collecting crystals and stones the last couple years. That will come in the New Year. I know I have had a few challenges, but also a few miracles, during my time here in the last 3 months.
*breathe* Where to start.
I moved here feeling elated, brand new, and excited. Out of the blue, a man re-entered my life whom I have known since an infant. Our families were very close. Our mothers were best friends. We went camping as kids and my family lived with his family for a couple months when my mom divorced my dad in 1989. He invited me to his aunt's house for thanksgiving, and, after not having seen him for 17 years, I gladly accepted.
Things hit off right away, and he pursued me and wanted a relationship. I was hesitant going into one, but my heart wasn't. I felt so comfortable around him, and he made me laugh until I couldn't catch my breath and my eyes cried. We built memories and future visions together for those 2 months. Then, all of a sudden, he became distant and eventually, ended the relationship with me. This is where I'm at right now. He still wants to be friends, but I want to be more. I recently went to his brother's wedding and had a great time with his family laughing and having a jolly time. They like me, and I like them. More so, I love and respect him. He is such a great guy, with so many good attributes, integrity, and goals. He will become successful at whatever he chooses to do. That's why, they say, if you love someone, let them go. As much as I love him and want to be with him, I do love him enough to let him carry on his own life and do what he needs to do. If I thought otherwise, that would be jealousy and greed.
Maybe this opportunity is teaching me to love, in ways that I haven't experienced before. I remember in past relationships I would have these set rules that I would make up for myself for a man to do. But that is not love, love has no restrictions. You should not expect anything from love. Thinking that way just set myself up for disappointment.
I am not going to be one of those girls who is walking on tightropes to express myself. There are people who give advice on what to do, how to act, what to say, eg. Wait an hour (hypothetically speaking) before returning his texts.... Playing hard to get..... Don't call him until he calls you.... I am sick of playing that bullshit game. If I want to talk to someone, if I want to hug them, if I want to express how I feel, I do it. It is not needy or any other type of label. I can love someone and be happy on my own at the same time. I am myself. I follow my own heart, because if I didn't, my mind would go crazy, thinking things in a never ending cycle, and I wouldn't be growing. I am moving away from the game mentality, and just going by what my heart truly desires. Why would I be someone else otherwise? What good is it to be someone else other than yourself? You just end up hurting yourself.
I've been reading/hearing that 2012 is quite the transitional year. A year of self reflection, breaking old patterns, and a LOT of coming more into our hearts rather our heads, as well as coming together to unite as a team effort to better humanity. Kindness will spread in the world, and we will seek prosperous relationships, a win-win joint effort, as well as care and compassion for one another. It will be our hunger, our strive. There will be a lot of oppositions with the government and law, but our souls will know the difference. We will feel more. We will engage more. We will seek personal goals. In this mind opening expansion, love may conquer all, in a matter of time, and money will take a back seat to make the world go round. Various activities to support human consciousness, brotherhood, and kindness will spread and get recognized in a matter of time. This is just the beginning. This is the turning point. The world will not end. It is just beginning.
Wow, that was an enlightenment.
My last year's resolution was to write everyday. I made the promise to write everyday, even if it was uninspiring such as "I don't know what to say." That lasted about a week. For the month of January, I slipped and tried to get back on my everyday routine, and then I slipped allllll year.... I wanted to make a book and call it "A Year in the Life of Karla" and look back at what I accomplished, fell back on, and grew from. But I guess I wasn't feeling it. I made a commitment that felt pressured. Writing only comes from inspiration, or an idea that flows. I just didn't have that everyday, and making myself write was something I didn't want to do, unless I felt it.
Like now.
I guess this year's resolution is to become more into myself and away from myself. I mean to become more into my authentic self, and less into my mind. To get away from all the little details and into the bigger picture. To concentrate on something bigger than myself. To stop thinking about what is happening TO me, and focus on what I CAN do. To flow with life, to be the master creator, and to know that I can make a difference in this world, and to get rid of my fears and out of my head concerning details. Think about what I want in life, and go for it, instead of how it's going to happening. All we have, individually, is knowledge. Knowledge we hear or read everywhere we go. It's not about how to use the knowledge, it's about trusting it, and letting it go. For example, you may think little of the universe and have little faith in things working out for you. It doesn't matter if you don't. It's trusting your inner knowledge and listening to that intuition inside of you that tells you what to believe. You know what's right for you. If you just listen. And believe it. Then, do it!
I hope all of you have a Happy, Joyous, Fulfilling 2012 and may you follow your dreams and your hearts.
Much Love,
Karla
Thursday, November 3, 2011
It's All About Attitude
I just recently moved to Vernon from Vancouver a month ago. One of the major reasons was to get out of the city. Another reason was to live more affordably, and another reason was to get out of the rain. One of the main reasons, was to seek inspiration through change.
At first I felt different, and everything I saw looked different. Even the people who I passed looked different. I had the idea of writing about my daily experiences on a journal and scanning them into a blog, so it would be like a blournal where the reader actually gets a personal touch of who I am. I could even draw little pictures and stuff. But I didn't do it, or haven't done it yet. Partly because of my lack of attention to one particular idea. But I am making the effort to write this now. And I am pleased.
What I really wanted to touch on is opportunity. And manifestation. It seems like I have quickly manifested so much in my time here within the last month, that it feels like my time has doubled. A lot has happened with the meeting of new people, me getting into a new relationship (I know, fast, right? But he is amazing) finding out that my landlady above me is an insomniac, figuring out that it's hard to get around at night without a car (the buses stop running at 6 pm so I feel like I am confined into this house), and realizing that I have to persist and hammer employers if I want to get a job. Alas, this is all part of the change and adventure that I wanted, and this is what I got.
I have been (we all are) manifesting things at an unreasonably fast rate, knowingly and unknowingly. What you think, you create. What you focus on, expands.
This past week I was feeling frustrated that I wouldn't get a job within the next 2 weeks - that is when I need to start working, in 2 weeks because my EI runs out. Panically thinking about Christmas, too, and making it home for my friends and family functions. Worriedly, I asked the Universe for me to land a job within 2 weeks. Fair enough, a few days later, I got a job offer in Vancouver at my old government job I used to work at, Indian and Northern Affairs. It was to start Nov. 14-Mar. 31. Great! But not the city I want to work in. (I guess we have to be specific with our askings!) Tempted to take it, afraid of money (or lack thereof), I had to let her know by 3 pm the next day. Feeling so grateful that the Universe has answered my request, I quickly decided in 2 hours and said I would take it! Feeling a bit uneasy with my belongings and having to move again, and giving up the chance that I had just set up for myself here, I felt a little cheated to myself. "Am I going to give up what could be to go back to where I wanted to escape from?" Thinking that I was making the right decision, I let some of my friends know that I was going back to Vancouver for 5 months. They were excited, of course, to see me again. I was too. Except I didn't know what Vernon would have to offer me. I gave my landlord my notice and was mentally preparing to move the next week.
The next morning(today), I woke up, and realized that I like it here. I love this city, and the people here are so nice. I have met a lot of nice people and have had a lot of help within this last month, just think about what more could come out of this if I were to stay. I really wanted to stay and give it a try for myself.
I phoned my landlord and apologized for the confusion, and told them that I was going to stay and give it a try. I also told the job I would not take it. I also told my friends and family I was staying.
Something came over me today. Something told me to keep going, not to give up, and that I have set myself up here. I felt pushed to try harder, faith and eagerness to proceed and succeed here in this town. I got out my folder and called the places I applied at last week to follow up on my applications. Who I never heard from but wanted to last week, I got in touch with. One of the places even set up an interview time for me. With my newfound attitude on success, I made my way out in the town with determination and confidence and the first place I applied to interviewed me on the spot, and I got the job! Even though it's not my desired pay and part-time, at least it's something to diminish my worry!
You see, I wanted to take that government job out of my attitude of fear and worry about money. I know that if I did go back to Vancouver, I would probably be wondering about all the opportunity I would be missing out on over here. But because I changed my attitude on faith and determination, and held a more positive approach to my reason I moved here, doors opened up for me! And I'm sure it would be a positive one! As one opportunity presents itself, other opportunities begin to present itself, and the flow continues. It's all about motives and attitude. What is the reason behind your decisions? What is your attitude when you make a decision?
Who knows what could present itself to me the longer I am here. The more I put myself out there and the more I have a positive outlook on the reason I moved here, the opportunities could be limitless. You just gotta ask with the right attitude, and you shall receive :)
Here are a couple quotes I thought of today:
"This is just a test. I repeat: This is only a test!" - Life
"When we follow our truth, the Universe opens up doors for us where we otherwise wouldn't see."
have a great day/week/month/year/life! Always remember, the right choices you make is in your attitude about them! :)
At first I felt different, and everything I saw looked different. Even the people who I passed looked different. I had the idea of writing about my daily experiences on a journal and scanning them into a blog, so it would be like a blournal where the reader actually gets a personal touch of who I am. I could even draw little pictures and stuff. But I didn't do it, or haven't done it yet. Partly because of my lack of attention to one particular idea. But I am making the effort to write this now. And I am pleased.
What I really wanted to touch on is opportunity. And manifestation. It seems like I have quickly manifested so much in my time here within the last month, that it feels like my time has doubled. A lot has happened with the meeting of new people, me getting into a new relationship (I know, fast, right? But he is amazing) finding out that my landlady above me is an insomniac, figuring out that it's hard to get around at night without a car (the buses stop running at 6 pm so I feel like I am confined into this house), and realizing that I have to persist and hammer employers if I want to get a job. Alas, this is all part of the change and adventure that I wanted, and this is what I got.
I have been (we all are) manifesting things at an unreasonably fast rate, knowingly and unknowingly. What you think, you create. What you focus on, expands.
This past week I was feeling frustrated that I wouldn't get a job within the next 2 weeks - that is when I need to start working, in 2 weeks because my EI runs out. Panically thinking about Christmas, too, and making it home for my friends and family functions. Worriedly, I asked the Universe for me to land a job within 2 weeks. Fair enough, a few days later, I got a job offer in Vancouver at my old government job I used to work at, Indian and Northern Affairs. It was to start Nov. 14-Mar. 31. Great! But not the city I want to work in. (I guess we have to be specific with our askings!) Tempted to take it, afraid of money (or lack thereof), I had to let her know by 3 pm the next day. Feeling so grateful that the Universe has answered my request, I quickly decided in 2 hours and said I would take it! Feeling a bit uneasy with my belongings and having to move again, and giving up the chance that I had just set up for myself here, I felt a little cheated to myself. "Am I going to give up what could be to go back to where I wanted to escape from?" Thinking that I was making the right decision, I let some of my friends know that I was going back to Vancouver for 5 months. They were excited, of course, to see me again. I was too. Except I didn't know what Vernon would have to offer me. I gave my landlord my notice and was mentally preparing to move the next week.
The next morning(today), I woke up, and realized that I like it here. I love this city, and the people here are so nice. I have met a lot of nice people and have had a lot of help within this last month, just think about what more could come out of this if I were to stay. I really wanted to stay and give it a try for myself.
I phoned my landlord and apologized for the confusion, and told them that I was going to stay and give it a try. I also told the job I would not take it. I also told my friends and family I was staying.
Something came over me today. Something told me to keep going, not to give up, and that I have set myself up here. I felt pushed to try harder, faith and eagerness to proceed and succeed here in this town. I got out my folder and called the places I applied at last week to follow up on my applications. Who I never heard from but wanted to last week, I got in touch with. One of the places even set up an interview time for me. With my newfound attitude on success, I made my way out in the town with determination and confidence and the first place I applied to interviewed me on the spot, and I got the job! Even though it's not my desired pay and part-time, at least it's something to diminish my worry!
You see, I wanted to take that government job out of my attitude of fear and worry about money. I know that if I did go back to Vancouver, I would probably be wondering about all the opportunity I would be missing out on over here. But because I changed my attitude on faith and determination, and held a more positive approach to my reason I moved here, doors opened up for me! And I'm sure it would be a positive one! As one opportunity presents itself, other opportunities begin to present itself, and the flow continues. It's all about motives and attitude. What is the reason behind your decisions? What is your attitude when you make a decision?
Who knows what could present itself to me the longer I am here. The more I put myself out there and the more I have a positive outlook on the reason I moved here, the opportunities could be limitless. You just gotta ask with the right attitude, and you shall receive :)
Here are a couple quotes I thought of today:
"This is just a test. I repeat: This is only a test!" - Life
"When we follow our truth, the Universe opens up doors for us where we otherwise wouldn't see."
have a great day/week/month/year/life! Always remember, the right choices you make is in your attitude about them! :)
Wednesday, September 21, 2011
Balance.
Balance.
What is balance? To some, it could mean centering oneself daily in the practice of meditation, exercise, yoga, playing an instrument, cooking, being in nature, or whatever it takes to make you feel like you can go on about your day and handle any task or challenging situation brought into your experience.
To some, it could mean eating a balanced diet, including the 5 food groups as part of a daily meal, keeping sugar out of your diet, or just not eating the whole box of your favorite chocolates.
In general, balance means to take control of your decisions when you are thinking clearly, and using things in moderation.
Over the years, I have become a sloth for trying to achieve balance. With many things I could speak about, I will only speak about one. That is coming to accept that certain things are out of your control, especially the actions, thoughts, and beliefs of others.
I recently watched the movie Eat, Pray, Love. Such a feel-good movie. If you haven't seen it, I do recommend it. If you don't already know the story, it is about a woman who has left her unhappy relationship to explore herself by travelling to 3 countries over 1 year. During her journey of self-discovery, she met a few interesting people who opened her perspective about love, food, religion, herself, and life. Her healing process had finally make her conclude “if you are brave enough to leave behind everything familiar and comforting (which can be anything from your house to your bitter old resentments) and set out on a truth-seeking journey (either externally or internally), and if you are truly willing to regard everything that happens to you on that journey as a clue, and if you accept everyone you meet along the way as a teacher, and if you are prepared – most of all – to face (and forgive) some very difficult realities about yourself – then truth will not be withheld from you.” Wow. How true is that. OK, that wasn't really the quote I was looking for the prove my point, but I thought I would add it in as it really speaks to me right now. I am going through a transition phase right now – I could look at it as a loss, but I am on a self-seeking journey to find my happiness, and in doing so, I have given up a few things recently. The lesson I am in is one of letting go, and that everything you need is provided from the universe for you!
OK, so where were we. Balance. Ah, yes. Some people I know have said that they can't be in a relationship when they feel unbalanced. Is that so? What about all those couples who have been married for 30 years or our families that stick around our whole lives?(I've recently read that maintaining successful family relationships is the biggest challenge of all relationships, and if you can do that, then all realtionships will be successful.) I am sure there have been many times when one or the other has felt a huge sense of imbalance. It's all in how we handle it. The most important key in a relationship is to know when you are unbalanced, acknowledge it, and do whatever it takes to regain your balance. But I suppose it is not a good idea to rid someone from your life because of your own imbalances. It is not the other person's fault and they will definitely love you even when you are feeling imbalanced. At least real love would.
OK, I'm getting a little carried away here. OK, so in the movie, Julia Roberts gave up a new opportunity for love, because she felt like she couldn't regain her balance in love. Her guru then said “Sometimes, to lose balance for love is part of living a balanced life.” That then led her to state her views regarding the former quote above, and she then chased after her man in a very happily-ever-after way.
So it comes down to know that having a “slip” of balance is a very natural human thing. We human beings are not perfect, and we are continuously learning. Whether it be feeling guilty for eating that bacon deluxe burger combo with mayo for your fries (just stuff yourself with salad the next day) or indulging in any addiction, or calling a loved one names, or not saying thank you to a stranger, we know what the right thing is for our body and mind ALWAYS. Sometimes we get so caught up in a bad day at work and take it out on our loved ones, and they take it out on someone else, and the vicious cycle continues. If we put things in perspective and NOT take things personally, and stop the vicious cycle, and let go of your mind, fear, ego, and take a chance into the unknown, and realize the real essence is love, as there is only love, then we could get through anything. And even if things don't always turn out the way we would expect, know that something greater is coming along to you from the universe. Open your mind, body, and heart to receive :-) :) YOU are in control of your own life and your reactions.
Ultra Light and Love to you today!!
xo
Karla :)
What is balance? To some, it could mean centering oneself daily in the practice of meditation, exercise, yoga, playing an instrument, cooking, being in nature, or whatever it takes to make you feel like you can go on about your day and handle any task or challenging situation brought into your experience.
To some, it could mean eating a balanced diet, including the 5 food groups as part of a daily meal, keeping sugar out of your diet, or just not eating the whole box of your favorite chocolates.
In general, balance means to take control of your decisions when you are thinking clearly, and using things in moderation.
Over the years, I have become a sloth for trying to achieve balance. With many things I could speak about, I will only speak about one. That is coming to accept that certain things are out of your control, especially the actions, thoughts, and beliefs of others.
I recently watched the movie Eat, Pray, Love. Such a feel-good movie. If you haven't seen it, I do recommend it. If you don't already know the story, it is about a woman who has left her unhappy relationship to explore herself by travelling to 3 countries over 1 year. During her journey of self-discovery, she met a few interesting people who opened her perspective about love, food, religion, herself, and life. Her healing process had finally make her conclude “if you are brave enough to leave behind everything familiar and comforting (which can be anything from your house to your bitter old resentments) and set out on a truth-seeking journey (either externally or internally), and if you are truly willing to regard everything that happens to you on that journey as a clue, and if you accept everyone you meet along the way as a teacher, and if you are prepared – most of all – to face (and forgive) some very difficult realities about yourself – then truth will not be withheld from you.” Wow. How true is that. OK, that wasn't really the quote I was looking for the prove my point, but I thought I would add it in as it really speaks to me right now. I am going through a transition phase right now – I could look at it as a loss, but I am on a self-seeking journey to find my happiness, and in doing so, I have given up a few things recently. The lesson I am in is one of letting go, and that everything you need is provided from the universe for you!
OK, so where were we. Balance. Ah, yes. Some people I know have said that they can't be in a relationship when they feel unbalanced. Is that so? What about all those couples who have been married for 30 years or our families that stick around our whole lives?(I've recently read that maintaining successful family relationships is the biggest challenge of all relationships, and if you can do that, then all realtionships will be successful.) I am sure there have been many times when one or the other has felt a huge sense of imbalance. It's all in how we handle it. The most important key in a relationship is to know when you are unbalanced, acknowledge it, and do whatever it takes to regain your balance. But I suppose it is not a good idea to rid someone from your life because of your own imbalances. It is not the other person's fault and they will definitely love you even when you are feeling imbalanced. At least real love would.
OK, I'm getting a little carried away here. OK, so in the movie, Julia Roberts gave up a new opportunity for love, because she felt like she couldn't regain her balance in love. Her guru then said “Sometimes, to lose balance for love is part of living a balanced life.” That then led her to state her views regarding the former quote above, and she then chased after her man in a very happily-ever-after way.
So it comes down to know that having a “slip” of balance is a very natural human thing. We human beings are not perfect, and we are continuously learning. Whether it be feeling guilty for eating that bacon deluxe burger combo with mayo for your fries (just stuff yourself with salad the next day) or indulging in any addiction, or calling a loved one names, or not saying thank you to a stranger, we know what the right thing is for our body and mind ALWAYS. Sometimes we get so caught up in a bad day at work and take it out on our loved ones, and they take it out on someone else, and the vicious cycle continues. If we put things in perspective and NOT take things personally, and stop the vicious cycle, and let go of your mind, fear, ego, and take a chance into the unknown, and realize the real essence is love, as there is only love, then we could get through anything. And even if things don't always turn out the way we would expect, know that something greater is coming along to you from the universe. Open your mind, body, and heart to receive :-) :) YOU are in control of your own life and your reactions.
Ultra Light and Love to you today!!
xo
Karla :)
Wednesday, January 5, 2011
2010 to 2011 ~ Transitioning into peace and love.
2011. Where did the year go? It seems like it was just summer a few months ago.
I am sure 2011 will provide many opportunities and the flow into them will be of ease.
I ended 2010 in Nipawin, Saskatchewan, and began 2011 in Nipawin, Saskatchewan. It seemed like the right place to shed behind and leave the old, and have something new to bring into the New Year. New scenery, new people, new insights.
I went with my boyfriend on a road trip from Vancouver, BC to Nipawin, Saskatchewan, and left the day after Christmas, December 26, 2010. It was a much needed journey to shed off some old stale energies stuck inside me. As the days went by, it seemed like I was gaining more insights, learning more lessons, and taking in a new perspective into creating the new me for a fresh start into 2011.
Nipawin is a town way north of Saskatchewan with the population of 1,000 with bare roads and white covered fields of snow. The quiet and stillness is basically all you have to take in. Ice fishing, snowmobiling, and the flaps of ravens wings through the dead sound of air swallowed by massive forests is Nipawin in a nutshell. Distant sounds of snowmobiles and trucks kilometres down the long snowy roads is all you hear. There was one time we went to the hillbilliest of the hillbillies own yard to put on some snow tires, where I kept warm from the -20 degree weather infront of a firepit in the garage with collectible pop and beer cans hanging from the ceiling. He said he collected every single printed label imaginable. The cold doesn't get to you though, like it does out here. With sunny skies and a drier climate, don't let the number fool you. Of course though, I was bundles up in layers and snow pants, but it doesn't chill you to the bone like the damp rainy weather of Vancouver.
My most memorable moment by far, though was our night spent at his friend Jeff's house, in Calgary, on our journey back, Jan 2, 2011. Jeff is a Shaman and works with crystals and Spirit. Just telling him I was feeling unbalanced lately was his invitation to do some work on me. He told me to stand up, and breathe and centre myself. As I was starting to feel the energy flow, it wasn't long for me to connect to my Higher Self. Visuals came to my head, and a doorway was seen in the distance. He told me to walk towards it. I did, and as I was standing there wanting to open it, he told Lance to stand up beside me and Lance had to prepare himself to let as well. At this point, feeling Lance's presence beside me, I felt so small. I felt like a tiny 4 foot lady and Lance was a powerful giant towering beside me, but I felt safe. Jeff gave Lance a crystal and told him that this was the key to give to me and Lance has been waiting for thousands of years to give this to me. Jeff told Lance he was in his past and Jeff told me to tell Lance "It's ok. You've fulfilled your vow." I said it, and Jeff told me to say it again, from my heart. I took a breath and felt it from my heart. I held out my hand and Jeff asked Lance if he was ready to give me the key. He said yes, and he put it in my hand. Jeff told me to look at it, and to see all the love that was in it from his past. I did, and I felt it. Jeff then told me to take a few steps through the door into the new room, and I pictured an outside field of flowers and daisies, and smelled the fresh air. He then told me to turn around and to see where I came from. I saw a dark doorway and through the doorway was a long hallway that was shadowed by the doorway. He told me that was the "old Karla" and all I saw was a dark shadowed Karla looking small. I felt bigger now standing in this new place. He told Lance to raise up his hands infront of him and me as well and to feel the energy between us. We then joined our hands together and had a heart felt connection and embraced each other in our arms for a minute or two. It was the best feeling. We were now connected at heart and inseparable.
Jeff then mentioned that that was the first time he hadn't held the key for anyone. It was Lance who held the key for me. That just reinstates that we are meant to be together, and we are there to help each other. That night, we had a heart-to-heart conversation lying in bed together. There is no one else I could open up to without shame or guilt or insecurity. All feels well and all feels safe with him. He is so understanding and caring and accepts and listens to me. He has taught me to love unconditionally and that heart is the most powerful thing. It can move mountains. Through heart, we can overcome anything.
Since that opening, I have felt more love in my heart. I had insights the next day driving through the Rockies from Calgary. As we were approaching the Rockies, I noticed mountains all around me, swarming, an endless supply. It occured to me that there is no one person or thing that we can rely on to make us happy. The world is endless with people and things and all is love and I felt all the love that was shared from people to people throughout my journey.
I also had an insight that we, as society has taught us, and peers and authority figures, to always be striving for something more than what we have and to do better, and to get more, and to achieve a certain status; to be this, that, married, a banker, lawyer, doctor, to be labelled. Well, that is bull$&!#. We have everything we need. I used to want to have something in order to feel successful or fulfilled. I've always wanted more than what I had. Well, it's right in front of my face. I already HAVE it. It's love, it's there. What more could I want? We are all love.
I am sure 2011 will provide many opportunities and the flow into them will be of ease.
I ended 2010 in Nipawin, Saskatchewan, and began 2011 in Nipawin, Saskatchewan. It seemed like the right place to shed behind and leave the old, and have something new to bring into the New Year. New scenery, new people, new insights.
I went with my boyfriend on a road trip from Vancouver, BC to Nipawin, Saskatchewan, and left the day after Christmas, December 26, 2010. It was a much needed journey to shed off some old stale energies stuck inside me. As the days went by, it seemed like I was gaining more insights, learning more lessons, and taking in a new perspective into creating the new me for a fresh start into 2011.
Nipawin is a town way north of Saskatchewan with the population of 1,000 with bare roads and white covered fields of snow. The quiet and stillness is basically all you have to take in. Ice fishing, snowmobiling, and the flaps of ravens wings through the dead sound of air swallowed by massive forests is Nipawin in a nutshell. Distant sounds of snowmobiles and trucks kilometres down the long snowy roads is all you hear. There was one time we went to the hillbilliest of the hillbillies own yard to put on some snow tires, where I kept warm from the -20 degree weather infront of a firepit in the garage with collectible pop and beer cans hanging from the ceiling. He said he collected every single printed label imaginable. The cold doesn't get to you though, like it does out here. With sunny skies and a drier climate, don't let the number fool you. Of course though, I was bundles up in layers and snow pants, but it doesn't chill you to the bone like the damp rainy weather of Vancouver.
My most memorable moment by far, though was our night spent at his friend Jeff's house, in Calgary, on our journey back, Jan 2, 2011. Jeff is a Shaman and works with crystals and Spirit. Just telling him I was feeling unbalanced lately was his invitation to do some work on me. He told me to stand up, and breathe and centre myself. As I was starting to feel the energy flow, it wasn't long for me to connect to my Higher Self. Visuals came to my head, and a doorway was seen in the distance. He told me to walk towards it. I did, and as I was standing there wanting to open it, he told Lance to stand up beside me and Lance had to prepare himself to let as well. At this point, feeling Lance's presence beside me, I felt so small. I felt like a tiny 4 foot lady and Lance was a powerful giant towering beside me, but I felt safe. Jeff gave Lance a crystal and told him that this was the key to give to me and Lance has been waiting for thousands of years to give this to me. Jeff told Lance he was in his past and Jeff told me to tell Lance "It's ok. You've fulfilled your vow." I said it, and Jeff told me to say it again, from my heart. I took a breath and felt it from my heart. I held out my hand and Jeff asked Lance if he was ready to give me the key. He said yes, and he put it in my hand. Jeff told me to look at it, and to see all the love that was in it from his past. I did, and I felt it. Jeff then told me to take a few steps through the door into the new room, and I pictured an outside field of flowers and daisies, and smelled the fresh air. He then told me to turn around and to see where I came from. I saw a dark doorway and through the doorway was a long hallway that was shadowed by the doorway. He told me that was the "old Karla" and all I saw was a dark shadowed Karla looking small. I felt bigger now standing in this new place. He told Lance to raise up his hands infront of him and me as well and to feel the energy between us. We then joined our hands together and had a heart felt connection and embraced each other in our arms for a minute or two. It was the best feeling. We were now connected at heart and inseparable.
Jeff then mentioned that that was the first time he hadn't held the key for anyone. It was Lance who held the key for me. That just reinstates that we are meant to be together, and we are there to help each other. That night, we had a heart-to-heart conversation lying in bed together. There is no one else I could open up to without shame or guilt or insecurity. All feels well and all feels safe with him. He is so understanding and caring and accepts and listens to me. He has taught me to love unconditionally and that heart is the most powerful thing. It can move mountains. Through heart, we can overcome anything.
Since that opening, I have felt more love in my heart. I had insights the next day driving through the Rockies from Calgary. As we were approaching the Rockies, I noticed mountains all around me, swarming, an endless supply. It occured to me that there is no one person or thing that we can rely on to make us happy. The world is endless with people and things and all is love and I felt all the love that was shared from people to people throughout my journey.
I also had an insight that we, as society has taught us, and peers and authority figures, to always be striving for something more than what we have and to do better, and to get more, and to achieve a certain status; to be this, that, married, a banker, lawyer, doctor, to be labelled. Well, that is bull$&!#. We have everything we need. I used to want to have something in order to feel successful or fulfilled. I've always wanted more than what I had. Well, it's right in front of my face. I already HAVE it. It's love, it's there. What more could I want? We are all love.
Wednesday, November 3, 2010
Inspiration – Found within you or around you?
Yesterday I met a man randomly by the name of Mitch, as I was at the laundromat. No, this wasn't one of those cheesy “Do you come here often” catch phrases. What struck me was him asking me what I was looking for in the newspaper as I took one out of the street box. I told him I was looking for some inspiration and he said “You don't find that in a newspaper honey, inspiration comes from within.” That struck me as a start to an interesting conversation. I challenged his statement by further saying “But some people don't know how to find it within themselves so they look for it in others so they can tap into their own inspiration.” Intrigued by my response, his first reaction was that I was good with my words. I've always known this, but I've kind of neglected awareness to my talents. We conversed for about half an hour more, and the main message I got from him was “Follow Your Dreams.” He told me his story of starting to follow his dreams by the age of 36 (he is now 47) where he decided one day to take that chance and travel the world as a photographer. He's traveled the world twice (and I mean the whole world, he adamantly mentioned) and has sold roughly 15,000 photographs. OK, maybe more, but it was a few thousand. Being so inspired by this man, out of the blue, is just what I needed at that time. Maybe I didn't need to get that paper. Maybe my whole reason for getting that paper was to get my inspiration from him: A travelling photographer with a sleeper van and his two pitt bulls parked on the side of the road feeding his dogs Science Diet mixed with beef off the sidewalk. After we said our goodbyes, I sat back down in the laundromat's chair, and opened the paper. Seeking inspiration through ads and pictures, I felt indifferent to them. I didn't need to look for inspiration in a newspaper. I had already found it. Now I'm sharing it with you.
Sunday, October 3, 2010
Simple Sounds
Quiet Sunday
The world's asleep.
Soft songs of bird melodies
fill the open air
by its own natural rhythm.
And I listen.
The world's asleep.
Soft songs of bird melodies
fill the open air
by its own natural rhythm.
And I listen.
Thursday, July 15, 2010
Accepting Challenges and Experiences in Life
What is the purpose of going through struggles and challenges? It seems that sometimes they seem to take us off our path we want to take. However, it all comes together when you accept the struggles and face the challenges as a way of learning and a means to grow from.
I relate it to athletic training, or a heavy workout session.
As one intensely begins the start of working out, one may wonder why they were even crazy enough to consider it. The pain, the fatigue, the shortness of breath leaves you wanting to quit. But as one trains the mind to proceed, it becomes more of a mental exercise than a body exercise. As one endures the pain and discomfort, the results are the only thought in mind: Total wellness and energy.
Much like the athlete, challenges should be faced the same way. Although unconsciously we are faced with challenges, consciously we choose to better our bodies.
Through challenges and struggles, pain, and heartache, we unconsciously want to run away or wish things were different because that is our natural reaction. Humans don't like change & want to keep a consistent ease of life. However, if we come to accept that things are bound to happen and come up unexpected, we can ease through our challenges as a way of accepting it as life. The more we continue to accept what is, rather than what should be, the more we open our hearts and come from a place of unconditional love. That is the way to go through the pain and suffering. It's to accept it, and acknowledge it is there, and think "What can I learn from this? Why has this been brought into my life unchosenly?" As we begin to assess our situation and the awkwardness we feel, we begin to recognize the areas we need to work on. For instance, if we wish things were a different way, accept them first. If we want someone to act a certain way, accept them first. It's a Catch 22. We can't force anything to happen. The more we accept from our heart, the more things will come into place and things will work itself out naturally and the more you will become a better person, next time they happen, consciously and emotionally.
This is our endurance we need to prevail from unconsciously created situations. This is how we get the results we want. If we just let go of our expectations of people and situations, things will turn around like you have never imagined they would.
After all, that is life. You can't control what happens, you can only control your reactions to what happens. We need these experiences to help better ourselves and to teach others in times of difficulty. We are there for each other. That's why we're here.
Next time you find yourself being critical of others and wanting them to change, remember that they all feel the same emotions we feel and we are all connected. Knowing this puts you at a level of acceptance. Energy is contagious and if we feel uncomfortable by our actions or the actions of others, start with your reaction and consciously choose love.
I relate it to athletic training, or a heavy workout session.
As one intensely begins the start of working out, one may wonder why they were even crazy enough to consider it. The pain, the fatigue, the shortness of breath leaves you wanting to quit. But as one trains the mind to proceed, it becomes more of a mental exercise than a body exercise. As one endures the pain and discomfort, the results are the only thought in mind: Total wellness and energy.
Much like the athlete, challenges should be faced the same way. Although unconsciously we are faced with challenges, consciously we choose to better our bodies.
Through challenges and struggles, pain, and heartache, we unconsciously want to run away or wish things were different because that is our natural reaction. Humans don't like change & want to keep a consistent ease of life. However, if we come to accept that things are bound to happen and come up unexpected, we can ease through our challenges as a way of accepting it as life. The more we continue to accept what is, rather than what should be, the more we open our hearts and come from a place of unconditional love. That is the way to go through the pain and suffering. It's to accept it, and acknowledge it is there, and think "What can I learn from this? Why has this been brought into my life unchosenly?" As we begin to assess our situation and the awkwardness we feel, we begin to recognize the areas we need to work on. For instance, if we wish things were a different way, accept them first. If we want someone to act a certain way, accept them first. It's a Catch 22. We can't force anything to happen. The more we accept from our heart, the more things will come into place and things will work itself out naturally and the more you will become a better person, next time they happen, consciously and emotionally.
This is our endurance we need to prevail from unconsciously created situations. This is how we get the results we want. If we just let go of our expectations of people and situations, things will turn around like you have never imagined they would.
After all, that is life. You can't control what happens, you can only control your reactions to what happens. We need these experiences to help better ourselves and to teach others in times of difficulty. We are there for each other. That's why we're here.
Next time you find yourself being critical of others and wanting them to change, remember that they all feel the same emotions we feel and we are all connected. Knowing this puts you at a level of acceptance. Energy is contagious and if we feel uncomfortable by our actions or the actions of others, start with your reaction and consciously choose love.
Monday, January 11, 2010
So much Love.....
Hellow Fellow Beings,
I have this amazingly powerful energy soaring through me right now, and I just wanted to share it with you. We have so much love to give each other, it is out of this world. It makes the world go round, it really does.... Money makes the world go round physically, but love makes the world go round spiritually, intangibly.... There is so much heart break and anger and bitterness in the world resulting in our unmet expectations. Humans, dear ones, you have to realize that EVERYTHING happens for a reason and the universe is sooo completely vast that we can't even wrap it around our heads!!!! It seems we get so wrapped in one thing, or 2, or 3 things that don't go our way, and we make a big fuss about it.... Well, what you need to do is expand your horizons.... there is so much out there we haven't experienced.... If we just open our minds to the limitless opportunities out there, and don't shut the door on new avenues that pop up in your day-to-day life. It is easy to be grumpy, being happy takes practice.... And persistence... And willingness. If you want to be, do, or have what you want, it takes practice.... Things aren't manifested instantaneously... Maybe if you are so aligned with your desires and your truth and openness it will come to you faster than the average joe. We are here to live consciously, in light, and in love. So in general, I have been having this keen sense of awareness that there is more to life out there than what you already have (or what you don't have!!!) I have experienced plenty of lack and hurt and disappointment in my life that I have come full circle into realizing that's where I don't need to be looking.... I need to be focusing on my abundance this moment. For that's all we have. And say you want something but it doesn't come to you. Well, then it's not meant for you to have. Everything comes into your life to teach you lessons and to help you realize your truth. People change. Everything changes. If it's not in your life for a reason, that reason is that you or them have changed. It's a different vibrational frequency that you just can't get mad at. Don't blame the world, because the world provides everything in your life for you at the right time and space of every single moment everyday. God (or the universe) wants nothing but the best for you. SO next time you get your heart broken, just remember - It will be better than it ever was. :)
I have this amazingly powerful energy soaring through me right now, and I just wanted to share it with you. We have so much love to give each other, it is out of this world. It makes the world go round, it really does.... Money makes the world go round physically, but love makes the world go round spiritually, intangibly.... There is so much heart break and anger and bitterness in the world resulting in our unmet expectations. Humans, dear ones, you have to realize that EVERYTHING happens for a reason and the universe is sooo completely vast that we can't even wrap it around our heads!!!! It seems we get so wrapped in one thing, or 2, or 3 things that don't go our way, and we make a big fuss about it.... Well, what you need to do is expand your horizons.... there is so much out there we haven't experienced.... If we just open our minds to the limitless opportunities out there, and don't shut the door on new avenues that pop up in your day-to-day life. It is easy to be grumpy, being happy takes practice.... And persistence... And willingness. If you want to be, do, or have what you want, it takes practice.... Things aren't manifested instantaneously... Maybe if you are so aligned with your desires and your truth and openness it will come to you faster than the average joe. We are here to live consciously, in light, and in love. So in general, I have been having this keen sense of awareness that there is more to life out there than what you already have (or what you don't have!!!) I have experienced plenty of lack and hurt and disappointment in my life that I have come full circle into realizing that's where I don't need to be looking.... I need to be focusing on my abundance this moment. For that's all we have. And say you want something but it doesn't come to you. Well, then it's not meant for you to have. Everything comes into your life to teach you lessons and to help you realize your truth. People change. Everything changes. If it's not in your life for a reason, that reason is that you or them have changed. It's a different vibrational frequency that you just can't get mad at. Don't blame the world, because the world provides everything in your life for you at the right time and space of every single moment everyday. God (or the universe) wants nothing but the best for you. SO next time you get your heart broken, just remember - It will be better than it ever was. :)
Sunday, January 3, 2010
New Year = New You
So welcome to the start of a new year - A big year from what I can feel so far. 2010 sounds big, and it's gonna be big. Big in the sense that a lot of transition and realization will take place, and a powerful urge to do well and move forward (such as the Olympian spirit).
Here are my quotes I gathered from insights recently (more so my resolutions for the new year/new me):
Stay away from what causes you pain and discomfort and what doesn't make you "you"
You can't control everything. The only things within your control are your reactions to situations and the choices you make
Don't focus on what you don't have, but what you do have (and it's usually right in front of you).
You can't change anything. You either accept it for what it is or accept it for what it's not.
Never settle for anything less than you deserve. And assess what it is that you deserve.
It's just as important what you don't do, as it is what you do do.
Trust yourself. Do what you want, and say what you want. No doubts or judgments upon self. Just do it if it makes you feel good.
And to quote Gordon Downie from The Tragically Hip: "you can't be fond of living in the past. Cause if you are then there is no way that you're going to last." - Wheat Kings.
May you all have a joyous and prosperous New Year 2010!!!!!!!!!
Love,
Karla
Here are my quotes I gathered from insights recently (more so my resolutions for the new year/new me):
Stay away from what causes you pain and discomfort and what doesn't make you "you"
You can't control everything. The only things within your control are your reactions to situations and the choices you make
Don't focus on what you don't have, but what you do have (and it's usually right in front of you).
You can't change anything. You either accept it for what it is or accept it for what it's not.
Never settle for anything less than you deserve. And assess what it is that you deserve.
It's just as important what you don't do, as it is what you do do.
Trust yourself. Do what you want, and say what you want. No doubts or judgments upon self. Just do it if it makes you feel good.
And to quote Gordon Downie from The Tragically Hip: "you can't be fond of living in the past. Cause if you are then there is no way that you're going to last." - Wheat Kings.
May you all have a joyous and prosperous New Year 2010!!!!!!!!!
Love,
Karla
Monday, November 30, 2009
In Transition........
Greetings,
It's been a long time since I've posted. That's due to a lack of inspiration or just inspiration trying to be born.
I guess what I've learned in this time period is that there are highs and lows and it is ok to feel them. I have been in transition with my perception and acceptance to myself. I have been reading a lot of material and talking to mentors/active practioners on living the Law of Attraction. Upon hearing this newfound view of life/human existence, it is so alluring to me, that it is like living in a candyland but after awhile, you can get a tummyache from eating too much good stuff, if you've never let yourself enjoy it before. I guess it takes brains and willpower and determination in putting all this good lovely sensible wisdom into play. I guess I had to take a step back in knowing how to handle the highs/lows and find the right balance.
What's been itching on me is the act of doing. I have been inspired from articles and speakers on "Just Be, Don't Do." This energy in this time period has switched over from masculine (doing) into feminine (being)..... Well, I'll tell ya, for sure it was hard for me to get in touch with my feelings when I have been doing for so long. But now, instead of reacting to my emotions that my thoughts trigger, I sit back, pause, and switch my energy into being. "It's just a thought and thoughts can be changed" is what I learned from Louise Hays that has stuck with me since reading "You Can Heal Your Life." I used to believe everything I thought. And I would be foolish. But at the time I was unaware of my foolishness, and thought I was right.
So, the bottom line, is to just be. And when I be, I turn inward into my heart more and less in my head. And it gives me a sense of peace, love, and acceptance. And I find myself being alright with things. And I enjoy the moment more. Because when you worry, you are worrying about the future, and are actually CREATING your future with your worried thoughts - Pretty scary. I've done it many times. Now I can create my future with just "being" and enjoying the moment. And I can create my future that way. And I dream. I dream big. I picture myself the way I want to be, and the way I want to be, and what I want in my life, and I imagine it. The big mansion and the perfect loving husband with the 2 kids running around hasn't showed up yet - But all the other little stuff I wanted that I imagined has in the last few months!!! So I don't have doubts that what I truly desire in my near future won't happen. Who knows how long when. But the immediate tiny desires I wished for for a short while did. So it's true that you can create your own destiny. You can have anything you want in life if you just be, imagine, and dream. It's pretty scary. But pretty damn cool.
It's been a long time since I've posted. That's due to a lack of inspiration or just inspiration trying to be born.
I guess what I've learned in this time period is that there are highs and lows and it is ok to feel them. I have been in transition with my perception and acceptance to myself. I have been reading a lot of material and talking to mentors/active practioners on living the Law of Attraction. Upon hearing this newfound view of life/human existence, it is so alluring to me, that it is like living in a candyland but after awhile, you can get a tummyache from eating too much good stuff, if you've never let yourself enjoy it before. I guess it takes brains and willpower and determination in putting all this good lovely sensible wisdom into play. I guess I had to take a step back in knowing how to handle the highs/lows and find the right balance.
What's been itching on me is the act of doing. I have been inspired from articles and speakers on "Just Be, Don't Do." This energy in this time period has switched over from masculine (doing) into feminine (being)..... Well, I'll tell ya, for sure it was hard for me to get in touch with my feelings when I have been doing for so long. But now, instead of reacting to my emotions that my thoughts trigger, I sit back, pause, and switch my energy into being. "It's just a thought and thoughts can be changed" is what I learned from Louise Hays that has stuck with me since reading "You Can Heal Your Life." I used to believe everything I thought. And I would be foolish. But at the time I was unaware of my foolishness, and thought I was right.
So, the bottom line, is to just be. And when I be, I turn inward into my heart more and less in my head. And it gives me a sense of peace, love, and acceptance. And I find myself being alright with things. And I enjoy the moment more. Because when you worry, you are worrying about the future, and are actually CREATING your future with your worried thoughts - Pretty scary. I've done it many times. Now I can create my future with just "being" and enjoying the moment. And I can create my future that way. And I dream. I dream big. I picture myself the way I want to be, and the way I want to be, and what I want in my life, and I imagine it. The big mansion and the perfect loving husband with the 2 kids running around hasn't showed up yet - But all the other little stuff I wanted that I imagined has in the last few months!!! So I don't have doubts that what I truly desire in my near future won't happen. Who knows how long when. But the immediate tiny desires I wished for for a short while did. So it's true that you can create your own destiny. You can have anything you want in life if you just be, imagine, and dream. It's pretty scary. But pretty damn cool.
Tuesday, October 6, 2009
Technology burying human compassion?
Recently, the Dalai Lama paid a visit to Vancouver. Even though I am reading his book "The Art of Happiness," I did not go and see him because tickets were $200-$300. However, the topic struck controversy over the media with "Is technology hindering human compassion" in this day and age. At first when I heard it, I wanted to disagree. I mean, it's good that we have cell phones and e-mail & Facebook so we CAN connect to others...
I think we can all relate to the feeling of wanting a connection/feeling a sense of trust & closeness with someone. And I'm not just talking sexual closeness, I'm talking on a more in-depth level of compassion, commitment, caring, and love. I know that's what I long for right now. I have internet and texts, but in a way, society becomes so used to that and accustomed to it that we feel like we really don't need to see each other face to face or voice to voice that often. We have become accustomed to an instantenous need for satisfaction. Facebook is a perfect example of that - Instead of seeing how someone you're thinking about is doing, you hear/see it from another source, the internet. What satisfaction does that give you in giving them your love? It's kind of a selfish gratification to your own ego. Instead of being vulnerable and giving your time to someone, you give it to yourself. And how are we to communicate and reciprocate love driving down that road? It's a one-way street. You see others, but they don't even know.
That's the way it is though, and I've come to accept it. We live in a fear based, quick-to-get, impatient, selfish society. All we want is for ourselves, and even if we achieve what we want, we still want more. Nothing is ever good enough. This applies mostly to material possessions. So how are we going to be appreciative of what we have? How are we gonna grow as a common society? I think it's a painful yet pleasurable approach. Just like whatever tastes good is bad for you, and the addiction to drinking and porn.... It's all just a temporary relief until we get to the root of our needs, it's all just a cover up of our weaknesses and shame.
There's a fine line though: I mean, when I am writing this, I feel I am doing good for society, because it's not just targeted to one "individual" and I can't go around telling everyone I speak to what's on my mind or wear a t-shirt made of a book... I think in general, the context of this topic is about "each other" - creating a connection between 2 people, growing individually, helping each other step by step, inspiring and enlightening each other, giving each other our time and undivided energy. It's a gift to be able to do that, and I am realizing now that interactions with others have a huge impact on human interconnectedness.
I don't think technology dampens compassion.... I am not uncompassionate when I text/e-mail people. I think it's just an easy cop-out for our interaction with others. It just limits your chance to giving it your all.
I think we can all relate to the feeling of wanting a connection/feeling a sense of trust & closeness with someone. And I'm not just talking sexual closeness, I'm talking on a more in-depth level of compassion, commitment, caring, and love. I know that's what I long for right now. I have internet and texts, but in a way, society becomes so used to that and accustomed to it that we feel like we really don't need to see each other face to face or voice to voice that often. We have become accustomed to an instantenous need for satisfaction. Facebook is a perfect example of that - Instead of seeing how someone you're thinking about is doing, you hear/see it from another source, the internet. What satisfaction does that give you in giving them your love? It's kind of a selfish gratification to your own ego. Instead of being vulnerable and giving your time to someone, you give it to yourself. And how are we to communicate and reciprocate love driving down that road? It's a one-way street. You see others, but they don't even know.
That's the way it is though, and I've come to accept it. We live in a fear based, quick-to-get, impatient, selfish society. All we want is for ourselves, and even if we achieve what we want, we still want more. Nothing is ever good enough. This applies mostly to material possessions. So how are we going to be appreciative of what we have? How are we gonna grow as a common society? I think it's a painful yet pleasurable approach. Just like whatever tastes good is bad for you, and the addiction to drinking and porn.... It's all just a temporary relief until we get to the root of our needs, it's all just a cover up of our weaknesses and shame.
There's a fine line though: I mean, when I am writing this, I feel I am doing good for society, because it's not just targeted to one "individual" and I can't go around telling everyone I speak to what's on my mind or wear a t-shirt made of a book... I think in general, the context of this topic is about "each other" - creating a connection between 2 people, growing individually, helping each other step by step, inspiring and enlightening each other, giving each other our time and undivided energy. It's a gift to be able to do that, and I am realizing now that interactions with others have a huge impact on human interconnectedness.
I don't think technology dampens compassion.... I am not uncompassionate when I text/e-mail people. I think it's just an easy cop-out for our interaction with others. It just limits your chance to giving it your all.
Wednesday, September 30, 2009
How to Attract What You Want
We have the power to create anything we want in this life. So many people have doubts, fears, old limiting beliefs that hinder them from achieving their full potential. Stuff like "I can't do that." "I don't deserve that." "Why would anyone appreciate that?" "They'll make fun of me." Well the easiest way to get out of that rut is to quiet those thoughts in your head, because that's what they are. "Just thoughts." How do you know those are true? How have you come to let these thoughts make your decisions in your daily lives? What are you holding for your future if you can't get passed the initial scare? The key to erase all this mental garbage is to realize "it's just a thought and thoughts can be changed."
Thoughts are energy. We have so much potential within us, yet we are afraid of what we are really capable of. One of my favorite quotes is from Marianne Williamson and it goes something like "Our biggest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our biggest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure." (there's more to it but I'll include it at the end of this post)
Wow! When I first heard that, that made total sense. I could relate to that because that's what I thought! That I wasn't good enough. And I kept myself from my full potential. I saw everyone happy around me and was envious because I was concentrating on the negatives in life and thought "well life isn't always pretty fluffly smelly roses all the time!" and put a block to my own happiness. I created a stink in my roses. I stopped myself from being happy! I felt I didn't deserve it! I did that to ME! I laugh now thinking that and at the time I was being too serious over-analyzing everything. How is that loving yourself? If you love someone, don't you want what's best for them? Well then, if you love yourself, don't you want what's best for you? The most crucial vital ingredient to your happiness is your relationship with yourself. That's how you attract good outside relationships. They say you can't love anyone unless you can love yourself. And it's true. How do you treat your love when you are so hard on yourself? Are you hard on them? Like attracts like. We treat people how we treat ourselves. Relationships are our best teachers.
The important thing I learned in one of my seminars I went to recently is that those negative emotions don't exist. They only have as much emphasis as you put on them. They seem like more work and heavier energy. They are only created by your inner reality (thoughts) which manifests beliefs which impact your decisions, which then affect others and which then creates what you don't want - a negative response from others. Your thoughts (energy) create your reality. If you focus on the negative "heavy" emotions, you will create "dis-ease" - It stems from a fear-based mentality. On the other hand, the good, and the "light" energy are "ease" - They come effortlessly. It stems from a love-based mentality. And that's exactly what I felt. I felt tired all the time, that something was always wrong in my life, that I felt dissatisfied. But another important thing I learned was: "What you focus on expands." Wow! Did that ever create a lightbulb moment in my head... Ah-ha! Duh..... It makes me laugh just thinking about it. How foolish it seems and how easy it is to just think of the negative and CREATE MORE negative! If only I switched my way of thinking to positive (because there is always a polar opposite to energy)- appreciation/gratitude/joy/love/trust/awareness/acceptance/understanding/compassion/peace, I will CREATE MORE positive! And how easy is that??! Well, I can just say that once you have worn out and torn your negative emotions to shreds just dwelling on being unhappy to the point that it is drilling you miserable, I thought I've had enough.... I wanted to change!!!!! So..... Easy - I just switched my thoughts. If I wanted to create more positive things in my life, and to attract good people, and to create a better job, and to be happy..... That's what I had to be. And I had to appreciate what I had in my life to attract more of it. That's the way Law of Attraction works. What you focus on, expands..... Negative draws in negativity. Positive draws in positivity. You dwell on your problems, you just create more of them. You worry you don't have enough money, well guess what? You don't. You are always creating unwanted circumstances and taking on an outside world victim mentality. Well guess what? You are not a victim. You are an inner victim to your own well-being. A lot of times we look outside ourselves to make us happy (material possesions and people), but where happiness comes from is inside ourselves. Only we have the power to heal ourselves through our state of mind and our energy.
I have learned the concept of appreciation and gratitude. If we are appreciative of what we have and are thankful to the universe for giving it to us, we will attract more of what we have. For example: When you are in a loving mode, and you freely give your love to your love, you create love, don't you? When you are in an angry mode, and take your anger out on someone else, do you make them angry? Sure. You can't brighten a room by arguing against the darkness, you make the room brighter by turning on the light.
This energy concept I have also come to realize is the basic law of Law of Attraction. You have your highs and lows, and like I said, there are no lows, there are only highs. We are the highs, that's the truth. It's the only way. Sure, everyone feels sad/mad/depressed/hatred/greed/envy/lack/guilt sometimes. But there is always an underlying truth in your subconscious to why you are feeling that way. The truth is the light to your darkness. It is the bridge to your gap between lows ----> highs. The best thing to do in that situation is to acknowledge the way you are feeling - and comfort your inner child within telling it it is ok to feel that way. At times we tend to over-analyze and get so wrapped up in our thoughts that we worry about we "should" do. (BTW, there are no "shoulds" in life. There is no rulebook stating that that's how it "should" be in Section 123 on Page 457. What works for someone else, might not work for you, and vice versa.) Don't be so hard on yourself. We're all human beings. We don't necessarily have to do anything if we don't know what to do. After all, we are not human doings, we are human beings. That was another concept that stuck with me. We are human beings. So just "BE" in the moment, in the foginess, in the haze, and in time, it will pass..... The bridge between that place is your vulnerability to be truthful to yourself of how you're feeling, and be easy on yourself "Ease = easy"... Accept yourself. Everything is perfect. Everything is brought to you at the right time and sequence in life. Everything you ever feel hatred towards, or guilty about, let it go. It is in the past and there is nothing you can do about that now. It's gone. The universe doesn't remember it. It only responds to NOW. So be who you want to be RIGHT NOW. Flush your old limiting beliefs that is prohibiting you from reaching your full potential. This is the only time for you to create what you want. Savour this moment and acknowledge how you feel. If you want to be a certain way, act it. BELIEVE it. BE it. The universe will respond to your thoughts and feelings. The more you practice who you want to be, the more you will become into that being. And talk yourself through it when you hear your old voice coming up with excuses or fears. Training the mind is the most crucial step in achieving awareness. Rome wasn't built in a day.
The universe acts quickly (believe me -- to the good and the bad!) As soon as I started practicing this stuff after becoming so fed up with being miserable, complaining, and negative, I was so convinced that I wanted to be a different person. I hated the way I was feeling!!!! That is the first initial sign - if you don't like the way you are feeling, change it! It seems so easy, but some people have such trouble with it because they are stuck in their old limiting beliefs! What you feel has EVERYTHING to do with what you attract. You are not going to attract Prince Charming being Medusa.
On the fear of Excellence
"Our biggest fear is not that we are inadequate.
Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.
It is our light, not our darkness, that most frightens us.
We ask ourselves, who am I to be brilliant,
or gorgeous
or talented
or fabulous?
Actually, who are you NOT to be?
You are a child of God.
You playing small doesn't serve the world.
There's nothing enlightened about shrinking
so that other people won't feel insecure around you.
We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us.
It's not just in some of us; it's in every one of us.
And as we let our own light shine,
we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same.
As we are liberated from our fear of our own excellence,
our presence automatically liberates others.
And excellence becomes the standard of all our lives."
From A Return to Love, by Marianne Williamson
Thoughts are energy. We have so much potential within us, yet we are afraid of what we are really capable of. One of my favorite quotes is from Marianne Williamson and it goes something like "Our biggest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our biggest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure." (there's more to it but I'll include it at the end of this post)
Wow! When I first heard that, that made total sense. I could relate to that because that's what I thought! That I wasn't good enough. And I kept myself from my full potential. I saw everyone happy around me and was envious because I was concentrating on the negatives in life and thought "well life isn't always pretty fluffly smelly roses all the time!" and put a block to my own happiness. I created a stink in my roses. I stopped myself from being happy! I felt I didn't deserve it! I did that to ME! I laugh now thinking that and at the time I was being too serious over-analyzing everything. How is that loving yourself? If you love someone, don't you want what's best for them? Well then, if you love yourself, don't you want what's best for you? The most crucial vital ingredient to your happiness is your relationship with yourself. That's how you attract good outside relationships. They say you can't love anyone unless you can love yourself. And it's true. How do you treat your love when you are so hard on yourself? Are you hard on them? Like attracts like. We treat people how we treat ourselves. Relationships are our best teachers.
The important thing I learned in one of my seminars I went to recently is that those negative emotions don't exist. They only have as much emphasis as you put on them. They seem like more work and heavier energy. They are only created by your inner reality (thoughts) which manifests beliefs which impact your decisions, which then affect others and which then creates what you don't want - a negative response from others. Your thoughts (energy) create your reality. If you focus on the negative "heavy" emotions, you will create "dis-ease" - It stems from a fear-based mentality. On the other hand, the good, and the "light" energy are "ease" - They come effortlessly. It stems from a love-based mentality. And that's exactly what I felt. I felt tired all the time, that something was always wrong in my life, that I felt dissatisfied. But another important thing I learned was: "What you focus on expands." Wow! Did that ever create a lightbulb moment in my head... Ah-ha! Duh..... It makes me laugh just thinking about it. How foolish it seems and how easy it is to just think of the negative and CREATE MORE negative! If only I switched my way of thinking to positive (because there is always a polar opposite to energy)- appreciation/gratitude/joy/love/trust/awareness/acceptance/understanding/compassion/peace, I will CREATE MORE positive! And how easy is that??! Well, I can just say that once you have worn out and torn your negative emotions to shreds just dwelling on being unhappy to the point that it is drilling you miserable, I thought I've had enough.... I wanted to change!!!!! So..... Easy - I just switched my thoughts. If I wanted to create more positive things in my life, and to attract good people, and to create a better job, and to be happy..... That's what I had to be. And I had to appreciate what I had in my life to attract more of it. That's the way Law of Attraction works. What you focus on, expands..... Negative draws in negativity. Positive draws in positivity. You dwell on your problems, you just create more of them. You worry you don't have enough money, well guess what? You don't. You are always creating unwanted circumstances and taking on an outside world victim mentality. Well guess what? You are not a victim. You are an inner victim to your own well-being. A lot of times we look outside ourselves to make us happy (material possesions and people), but where happiness comes from is inside ourselves. Only we have the power to heal ourselves through our state of mind and our energy.
I have learned the concept of appreciation and gratitude. If we are appreciative of what we have and are thankful to the universe for giving it to us, we will attract more of what we have. For example: When you are in a loving mode, and you freely give your love to your love, you create love, don't you? When you are in an angry mode, and take your anger out on someone else, do you make them angry? Sure. You can't brighten a room by arguing against the darkness, you make the room brighter by turning on the light.
This energy concept I have also come to realize is the basic law of Law of Attraction. You have your highs and lows, and like I said, there are no lows, there are only highs. We are the highs, that's the truth. It's the only way. Sure, everyone feels sad/mad/depressed/hatred/greed/envy/lack/guilt sometimes. But there is always an underlying truth in your subconscious to why you are feeling that way. The truth is the light to your darkness. It is the bridge to your gap between lows ----> highs. The best thing to do in that situation is to acknowledge the way you are feeling - and comfort your inner child within telling it it is ok to feel that way. At times we tend to over-analyze and get so wrapped up in our thoughts that we worry about we "should" do. (BTW, there are no "shoulds" in life. There is no rulebook stating that that's how it "should" be in Section 123 on Page 457. What works for someone else, might not work for you, and vice versa.) Don't be so hard on yourself. We're all human beings. We don't necessarily have to do anything if we don't know what to do. After all, we are not human doings, we are human beings. That was another concept that stuck with me. We are human beings. So just "BE" in the moment, in the foginess, in the haze, and in time, it will pass..... The bridge between that place is your vulnerability to be truthful to yourself of how you're feeling, and be easy on yourself "Ease = easy"... Accept yourself. Everything is perfect. Everything is brought to you at the right time and sequence in life. Everything you ever feel hatred towards, or guilty about, let it go. It is in the past and there is nothing you can do about that now. It's gone. The universe doesn't remember it. It only responds to NOW. So be who you want to be RIGHT NOW. Flush your old limiting beliefs that is prohibiting you from reaching your full potential. This is the only time for you to create what you want. Savour this moment and acknowledge how you feel. If you want to be a certain way, act it. BELIEVE it. BE it. The universe will respond to your thoughts and feelings. The more you practice who you want to be, the more you will become into that being. And talk yourself through it when you hear your old voice coming up with excuses or fears. Training the mind is the most crucial step in achieving awareness. Rome wasn't built in a day.
The universe acts quickly (believe me -- to the good and the bad!) As soon as I started practicing this stuff after becoming so fed up with being miserable, complaining, and negative, I was so convinced that I wanted to be a different person. I hated the way I was feeling!!!! That is the first initial sign - if you don't like the way you are feeling, change it! It seems so easy, but some people have such trouble with it because they are stuck in their old limiting beliefs! What you feel has EVERYTHING to do with what you attract. You are not going to attract Prince Charming being Medusa.
On the fear of Excellence
"Our biggest fear is not that we are inadequate.
Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.
It is our light, not our darkness, that most frightens us.
We ask ourselves, who am I to be brilliant,
or gorgeous
or talented
or fabulous?
Actually, who are you NOT to be?
You are a child of God.
You playing small doesn't serve the world.
There's nothing enlightened about shrinking
so that other people won't feel insecure around you.
We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us.
It's not just in some of us; it's in every one of us.
And as we let our own light shine,
we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same.
As we are liberated from our fear of our own excellence,
our presence automatically liberates others.
And excellence becomes the standard of all our lives."
From A Return to Love, by Marianne Williamson
Saturday, September 19, 2009
Actualities
Aug 31
All these things I thought I wanted
Are right beneath me
But yet I can't seem to want to take hold
My beliefs are changing
My ways and acts have come a full circle
I am not the same person
I used to be
Abundance is there if you look really closely
You will see You have
What you need
The universe provides for all that we ask for
Even if we're not consciously aware
We're asking for it
Our thoughts are so powerful
It's Energy, Beyond Measure
So many amazing things have been happening to me lately.
One after another, a series of events
I am only aware of them now.
I have come to the alignment with myself,
My soul, my body, my Mind, The Universe.
What we ask for.
Is what we'll get.
We have to become aware of or thoughts.
They are what create our reality, so be careful what you believe.
Our view, what we come to believe, is all an inner manifestation of our thoughts.
What we experience, is a reflection of what we believe.
Our reactions to events
Is an outward manifestation of our inner reality.
Our thoughts and beliefs are an outward hologram.
What we perceive is what we have believed through time.
Well, the time is Up!!!!
The time is NOW and you have an opportunity to change the way you think, how you perceive, and what you believe about the events and the people around you.
All these things I thought I wanted
Are right beneath me
But yet I can't seem to want to take hold
My beliefs are changing
My ways and acts have come a full circle
I am not the same person
I used to be
Abundance is there if you look really closely
You will see You have
What you need
The universe provides for all that we ask for
Even if we're not consciously aware
We're asking for it
Our thoughts are so powerful
It's Energy, Beyond Measure
So many amazing things have been happening to me lately.
One after another, a series of events
I am only aware of them now.
I have come to the alignment with myself,
My soul, my body, my Mind, The Universe.
What we ask for.
Is what we'll get.
We have to become aware of or thoughts.
They are what create our reality, so be careful what you believe.
Our view, what we come to believe, is all an inner manifestation of our thoughts.
What we experience, is a reflection of what we believe.
Our reactions to events
Is an outward manifestation of our inner reality.
Our thoughts and beliefs are an outward hologram.
What we perceive is what we have believed through time.
Well, the time is Up!!!!
The time is NOW and you have an opportunity to change the way you think, how you perceive, and what you believe about the events and the people around you.
Love
Today I found out that an old friend of mine went missing. For a second, I could relate noting that I once felt like “running away,” a means to escape from reality, into a deeper and dark secretive yet mysterious reality we have never known yet are so anxious to experience a better world out there. I'm sure everyone has felt like this at some point in their lives. Whether you're 6, or 16, or 26, or 46... I don't think age has anything to do with this behavior. I think the more we feel like acting on our emotions, the more we learn the consequences of our actions and it gets easier to manage our feelings as we learn to talk ourselves out of it.
I have had my heart broken, and it sucks. It feels like you really can't go on, that there is nothing really to live for, that a piece of YOU is missing... And I started to wonder.... Is that necessarily a bad thing??!
Love is the strongest emotion of all. What is love then, when you love someone, and you feel you have everything to give them? What is so bad about thinking of them as your world and can't wait to see them? That the thing you're doing every minute with joy is that joy they bring to you when you think of them? What is so bad about KNOWING that you have finally found someone that makes your heart skip a beat and the only thoughts you have are of the two of you enjoying to no extent the endless possibilities that lie in the two of yous' future? I mean, once you KNOW something, it's hard for other people to make a judment that you don't... Once you KNOW something, it's hard to get to explain to someone else how you FEEL about that person. They just don't understand because they can't FEEL the same feelings as you. Feelings are not explanatory... They are just felt, and are real. And my feelings have led me into every area of my life. They are my guidance. It's hard to go against your feelings, even if your mind rationalizes every little instance and nuiance and every little detail and nook and corner and cranny... It just doesn't all add up to the way you're FEELING. Feelings and logic are two separate planets... Although one is usually held higher for a person. Logic is explaining and weighing things out and making sense of it all.... Your thoughts can change, but your heart doesn't.... You can think anything your thoughts allow you to believe if you have control over them.... But your heart doesn't lie....Your thoughts just help you move on.... But a piece of your heart will always be with the one(s) that you loved.....
After relating to this story and being inspired to come to the terms of my own inner alignment/self realization by experience, I'm kind of wary now on what love is... I mean, if you don't get the feelings of all the above mentioned while in love, then what is it? And how hard do you fall? And what do you hold back to tell someone how you feel about them? I guess you can fall deeply in love but fall deeply for the wrong person. It just has to be an equal amount of give and take to have the same level of love flowing back and forth. You have to speak the same love language.... You have to give and know when to receive.... You have to receive and know when to give.... But most important of it all, is that you don't lose the LOVE for yourself that you once had that got lost along the way of your journey.... So you don't get burned out... So you save some for yourself and know when to give to yourself when you're not getting back.... Like this instance.... And my instance(s) I've had.... that have led to my distraught phases from the lack of love I had for myself.... But eventually we always will replenish ourselves.... It's just a learning process of realizing when we are empty..... And it'll always come.... We'll know and feel when that is...We just have to be patient.....
Love and Light!!!
Karla :)
I have had my heart broken, and it sucks. It feels like you really can't go on, that there is nothing really to live for, that a piece of YOU is missing... And I started to wonder.... Is that necessarily a bad thing??!
Love is the strongest emotion of all. What is love then, when you love someone, and you feel you have everything to give them? What is so bad about thinking of them as your world and can't wait to see them? That the thing you're doing every minute with joy is that joy they bring to you when you think of them? What is so bad about KNOWING that you have finally found someone that makes your heart skip a beat and the only thoughts you have are of the two of you enjoying to no extent the endless possibilities that lie in the two of yous' future? I mean, once you KNOW something, it's hard for other people to make a judment that you don't... Once you KNOW something, it's hard to get to explain to someone else how you FEEL about that person. They just don't understand because they can't FEEL the same feelings as you. Feelings are not explanatory... They are just felt, and are real. And my feelings have led me into every area of my life. They are my guidance. It's hard to go against your feelings, even if your mind rationalizes every little instance and nuiance and every little detail and nook and corner and cranny... It just doesn't all add up to the way you're FEELING. Feelings and logic are two separate planets... Although one is usually held higher for a person. Logic is explaining and weighing things out and making sense of it all.... Your thoughts can change, but your heart doesn't.... You can think anything your thoughts allow you to believe if you have control over them.... But your heart doesn't lie....Your thoughts just help you move on.... But a piece of your heart will always be with the one(s) that you loved.....
After relating to this story and being inspired to come to the terms of my own inner alignment/self realization by experience, I'm kind of wary now on what love is... I mean, if you don't get the feelings of all the above mentioned while in love, then what is it? And how hard do you fall? And what do you hold back to tell someone how you feel about them? I guess you can fall deeply in love but fall deeply for the wrong person. It just has to be an equal amount of give and take to have the same level of love flowing back and forth. You have to speak the same love language.... You have to give and know when to receive.... You have to receive and know when to give.... But most important of it all, is that you don't lose the LOVE for yourself that you once had that got lost along the way of your journey.... So you don't get burned out... So you save some for yourself and know when to give to yourself when you're not getting back.... Like this instance.... And my instance(s) I've had.... that have led to my distraught phases from the lack of love I had for myself.... But eventually we always will replenish ourselves.... It's just a learning process of realizing when we are empty..... And it'll always come.... We'll know and feel when that is...We just have to be patient.....
Love and Light!!!
Karla :)
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